Thursday, October 4, 2012
Locked in Love, Braided in Bliss
On Feb. 18th of 2011 I met a man whom I loved instantly and deeply and together we created dreadlocks on our heads. We called them Love Locks, for Love is nothing to dread :) So, my locks will be two in February 2013. This Beloved of mine is now with another, and I am also with another (a beautiful creature named Noah). After seeing a sister of mine with some beautiful braids in her hair, I asked her who created such art and she referred me to Amma in San Fransisco. I have been wanting to re-create my dreads but feeling a little overwhelmed about how. Amma to the rescue! I went to the yarn store and selected three different woolen styles. I took public transportation all the way to the city from Santa Cruz. I walked many blocks and saw many diverse people on my way to the African Braiding Salon on Taylor street. Inside I was greeted by Amma and Flo, two beautiful African women whom I totally fell in love with. Amma washed and nurtured my scalp, the proceeded to separate and tighten up all 44 of my love-locks.
Wow.
Having my locks worked on like that for five hours was actually quite painful and the whole time I had my yak bone mala in my hand chanting different Buddhist, Hindi and Gurmuki mantras. Ad guray nameh. Jugad guray nameh. Sat guray nameh. Siri guru devey nameh. Sat Nam. Namyoho rengekyo. Om namo shivaya. Ek ong kar. etc....
I needed it. I needed a little pain to ease the pain of any healing wounds in my heart. I needed someone elses hands to work my locks out, work his magic out of my hair, snip and clip, twist and tie, wash and dry. Amma was my like my Momma. I felt like a little girl getting my hair done by The Divine Mother. 'Beauty has a price', she said. It's true. It took all day. I took two buses and a the train there and two buses and the train back. Don't even ask me what it cost.
I am so grateful for the abundance of resources I have that enable me to express my impulsive creative nature. I am grateful to all who support my crafts, trades, and talents. I am honored to share gifts and promote others art. My hair is a representation of this. BE THE FREE YOU! Be expressive. Sing it, wing it, and most of all BRING it...ON!
This is the message I want to convey with my love locks. LOVE YOURSELF enough to transform into the perfect you. What does your perfect self say, wear, do, laugh at, talk about, associate with? I envisioned my perfect self and what she looked like and these locks are it. This is my dedication to loving my art, my path and my perfect self.
Thank you for reading. I hope you feel as inspired as I do!
Namaste.
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Sunday, April 15, 2012
Diary of the Jungle Goddess: Day 38
It has been 38 days since I have been living in Hana, Hawaii with no phone/car/running water/gridded electricity or worries :) What I DO have in Hana, Hawaii is beautiful jungle all around, my Beloved Wolf showing me the roots of living from the land, THE LAND, space for gardens and groves, newly planted seeds, sprouting seeds, fresh flowers outside my front door, papaya trees by my window, SILENCE, my trusty little MacBook, new friends, new opportunities, a fabulous community of Hawaiian natives, fresh fruits falling from trees, and lots of interesting stories already!
There is no "bathroom" here. There IS a self composting toilet. So, I don't flush anything. I turn a crank and it makes poop to soil that in seven years can be used! We also compost all of our veggie waste and eggshells. Good for the garden! We also compost our grass clippings and raked leaves. Good for the worm bin we made, which in turn is also good for the vegetable garden we are growing :)
There is no running water coming from any town or city, but there IS a rain water catchment system, generator and propane tank so we still have the luxury of a hot shower (until the wind blows out the pilot light ;)
There was a flock of three hens and one rooster. Then, the storm came and rearranged the land and some animals and all of a sudden we had two roosters, six hens, and a random donkey. Our neighbor caught the donkey, and then two crazy local boys stole our roosters, leaving six hens with no roosters. Two hens ran off. We built a coupe for the rest. For a while, we were able to harvest eggs that were UNfertalized/UNpasturized/Free Range/Organic/GMO Free and LOCAL! How amazing! Then a mongoose attacked and ate one hen :( Another mongoose attacked another hen (I watched it try to bite off her head! Wild!), but I saved her. The chickens did not want to hang out anymore after that. (I don't blame them). They are freaked out that there roosters got taken and that their peers were being picked off by the mongeese (plural for mongoose). I am over the crazy mongoose infestation, to be honest. They are an invasive species, brought over by the white man to rid the island of rats. Well, the mongoose hunts by day and rats hunt by night. So, there are lots of both, and not many chicken eggs to be found anywhere (favorite snack of Mr. Mongoose). I am working on being at peace with these little critters who also like to eat my bananas...
Speaking of little critters...Rats like to live in the sugar cane that is all around our hale (little jungle hut). They kept coming in at night. There were two. They liked to sneak in and eat our avocados and fruits ripening in the window sill. We could hear them and would flip on the light, but they were too quick. We saw them once slipping out through a small hole in the screen. We patched the hole. They made another one. There was a game going for about two weeks and then one night Wolf snapped after the rat actually ran across his face in the middle of the night. (EEKS! Glad it wasn't me.) Very quickly after the light came on there were two dead rats being tossed into the cane grass. Moments after he tossed the rat carcasses outside we heard an owl screech and swoop. Dinner for the aum'akua (ancestor spirits in the form of animals)...
We hitch hike 50 miles into Paia to get out provisions once or twice a month. We hitch and walk everywhere. It's not hard, but it is a lot of energy. I am looking forward to getting a truck for sure :) In the meantime, however, one of my favorite things to do is hitch around on the Hana Highway for two reasons. Reason one...it is SO DAMN BEAUTIFUL! I feel incredibly blessed to be driven around each turn and twist so I can fully appreciate each new view, each ray of sun, each crevice of the valley. Reason two...all of the people that pick us up have some sort of amazing clue on how to live life in a better, more wonderful, magical way! I love it here, truly.
Wolf built a sweatlodge on the property. We held a ceremony last week and two other beautiful souls joined us. The four of us sweat, chanted, sang and shared story for an entire afternoon and it was profound. I am grateful to have a partner who is conscious in leading such lodges, and has the heart centered desire to do so.
I have been creating left and right. Wolf really inspires me with his insanely complex wire-wraps, dream-catchers, and chocolate making. I have been getting my hands dirty with all sorts of situations. I have been enjoying making art to sell with him at the fruit stands and to tourists. I have been creating all sorts of smoothies and raw food concoctions. I have been writing poetry and taking the time to blog more often. I feel the surge of words coming deep from within, and it feels good to begin preparing the space for it to finally flow through. I want to write books. This is the beginning. Thank you for bearing witness!
I love the HI Life! A life of rainbow delights in every facet. Waterfalls here, lush gardens over there. Fruit falling here, butterflies and birds flying there. God is everywhere, and here, at her most magnificent.
I am grateful to be living sustainably, joyfully, and creatively in one of the most lovely locations on Earth! Thank you for following your bliss and mine. ALOHA!
There is no "bathroom" here. There IS a self composting toilet. So, I don't flush anything. I turn a crank and it makes poop to soil that in seven years can be used! We also compost all of our veggie waste and eggshells. Good for the garden! We also compost our grass clippings and raked leaves. Good for the worm bin we made, which in turn is also good for the vegetable garden we are growing :)
There is no running water coming from any town or city, but there IS a rain water catchment system, generator and propane tank so we still have the luxury of a hot shower (until the wind blows out the pilot light ;)
There was a flock of three hens and one rooster. Then, the storm came and rearranged the land and some animals and all of a sudden we had two roosters, six hens, and a random donkey. Our neighbor caught the donkey, and then two crazy local boys stole our roosters, leaving six hens with no roosters. Two hens ran off. We built a coupe for the rest. For a while, we were able to harvest eggs that were UNfertalized/UNpasturized/Free Range/Organic/GMO Free and LOCAL! How amazing! Then a mongoose attacked and ate one hen :( Another mongoose attacked another hen (I watched it try to bite off her head! Wild!), but I saved her. The chickens did not want to hang out anymore after that. (I don't blame them). They are freaked out that there roosters got taken and that their peers were being picked off by the mongeese (plural for mongoose). I am over the crazy mongoose infestation, to be honest. They are an invasive species, brought over by the white man to rid the island of rats. Well, the mongoose hunts by day and rats hunt by night. So, there are lots of both, and not many chicken eggs to be found anywhere (favorite snack of Mr. Mongoose). I am working on being at peace with these little critters who also like to eat my bananas...
Speaking of little critters...Rats like to live in the sugar cane that is all around our hale (little jungle hut). They kept coming in at night. There were two. They liked to sneak in and eat our avocados and fruits ripening in the window sill. We could hear them and would flip on the light, but they were too quick. We saw them once slipping out through a small hole in the screen. We patched the hole. They made another one. There was a game going for about two weeks and then one night Wolf snapped after the rat actually ran across his face in the middle of the night. (EEKS! Glad it wasn't me.) Very quickly after the light came on there were two dead rats being tossed into the cane grass. Moments after he tossed the rat carcasses outside we heard an owl screech and swoop. Dinner for the aum'akua (ancestor spirits in the form of animals)...
We hitch hike 50 miles into Paia to get out provisions once or twice a month. We hitch and walk everywhere. It's not hard, but it is a lot of energy. I am looking forward to getting a truck for sure :) In the meantime, however, one of my favorite things to do is hitch around on the Hana Highway for two reasons. Reason one...it is SO DAMN BEAUTIFUL! I feel incredibly blessed to be driven around each turn and twist so I can fully appreciate each new view, each ray of sun, each crevice of the valley. Reason two...all of the people that pick us up have some sort of amazing clue on how to live life in a better, more wonderful, magical way! I love it here, truly.
Wolf built a sweatlodge on the property. We held a ceremony last week and two other beautiful souls joined us. The four of us sweat, chanted, sang and shared story for an entire afternoon and it was profound. I am grateful to have a partner who is conscious in leading such lodges, and has the heart centered desire to do so.
I have been creating left and right. Wolf really inspires me with his insanely complex wire-wraps, dream-catchers, and chocolate making. I have been getting my hands dirty with all sorts of situations. I have been enjoying making art to sell with him at the fruit stands and to tourists. I have been creating all sorts of smoothies and raw food concoctions. I have been writing poetry and taking the time to blog more often. I feel the surge of words coming deep from within, and it feels good to begin preparing the space for it to finally flow through. I want to write books. This is the beginning. Thank you for bearing witness!
I love the HI Life! A life of rainbow delights in every facet. Waterfalls here, lush gardens over there. Fruit falling here, butterflies and birds flying there. God is everywhere, and here, at her most magnificent.
I am grateful to be living sustainably, joyfully, and creatively in one of the most lovely locations on Earth! Thank you for following your bliss and mine. ALOHA!
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Happy Maui-versary to Me!
Where to begin? At the end, of course. A circle is constant in this way...
An entire eternity has come and gone in the last 365 days. Today marks one year that I landed on Maui. Today is my Maui Anniversary! :)
I arrived here on 1/11/11 (an auspicious date, indeed.) I arrived after having spent five months in the sweet (yet very wet and cold) surf-side city of Santa Cruz. It was a true blessing to be nurtured by the rooted redwoods before tossing myself into the chaotic realms of the Maui and her mysteries. So, 2011 began for me with a BANG! Aloha, Maui :) I was welcomed with love and grace, having support from friends who I connected with mainland who were now living on Maui. Noah picked me up from the airport, and Heidi hooked me up with a sweet landing pad in her spot in Haiku. It was so amazing to wake up to her making smoothies topped with local bee pollen (it was purple!) and an amazing sunrise outside the window. Within three days I found an E350 Ford Van that I converted into my home on wheels. I found it for $1000 on craigslist. God loves me! The adventure had begun.
My beautiful friend Forest came to visit me in Maui from Santa Cruz. We had formed a very special friendship based on love and sharing, so we shared just that...friendly love and space in my little van for exactly 22 days. We cruised all over the island. We went to Mystic Island Party where I had the pleasure of performing with live electronic/loop artist David Starfire! Mystic Island is such a beautiful gathering. Totally tribal. It occurs in a beautiful setting right on the ocean where you could look out at almost any time and see turtles, dolphins or whales. EPIC music, yoga classes, emotional freedom technique classes, non-violent communication courses, SO many other classes and organic delicious food, all in one place! I met so many amazing souls and felt like I really grounded into the roots community that is Maui. I am so excited about Mystic Island Festival 2012 happening Jan. 26th-30th! I am performing with DJ Starfire again, as well as Jaya Lakshmi & Ananda (who are my favorite Kirtan couple :) I love the way my creative life is continually coming full circle...
Forest and I continued on our journey, floating from the hippie hotspots of Paia, and Makawao, to the waterfalls, sacred pools, jungles and bamboo forests of Hana, all the way to the sunny side for Sunday Drum Circles on Little Beach.
A side-stroy on Little Beach: I'll never forget when I was fire-hooping somewhere in Florida when a stranger said in passing "Little Beach would love you!" "Where is Little Beach?" I wondered. I found out. MAUI. That was one of the main 'omens' that ended up guiding me directly two this other-worldly-wonder. The first time I fire-hooped on Little I received the loudest applause from the most loving, cheering, screaming, enthusiastic audience I had ever witnessed! I cried. I haven't missed a Sunday since (other than when I was on the mainland). I love Little Beach. It has been such an accepting and opportunity offering space in my creative world. I am grateful for this rare gem! Where else is there a beautiful, clothing optional beach with a panoramic view of paradise, complete with whales jumping and hippie's jamming? <3
Only on Maui...
So, back to the timeline. Forest and I had a blast doing acro-yoga and hooping (he wanted to learn and now-a-days he better than ME!:) All through the sunny days and starry nights, we played and laughed. I really appreciated Forest's company and I am grateful for all of the lessons and joy we shared in. I feel like Forest actually carries the redwoods in his soul. It was such a blessing to spend that special time with one of my most special friends!
My entry to Maui was so beautiful, easy and graceful. It paved the way for much love and abundance to occur in my life, and the lives of those around me. I have developed massage clientele on the island, and also sold about fifty hoops that I made and flew over from California when I arrived last year. I felt so good, so at ease, and very much on purpose. Since then, I have purchased some hoop materials and will have hoops available for sale this month at Mystic Island. My massage clientele keeps growing and I have some folks who are learning from me. My life is blessed :)
I am excited to be able to live my dreams of creative sustainably!
After Forest left I enjoyed some time solo on the island activating the hoop scene. I performed as often as I could everywhere I could. Art openings, farmers markets, parties, festivals, etc. I went to this one amazing festival based solely on raw, live, vegan food called Bliss Camp (also known as Raw Spirit Festival) put on by an amazing sprite named Happy Oasis. This was a very intimate gathering of lovely folks who were all on the same page with healthy food and healthy vibes. All of the food was created by hand from freshly foraged fruits, coconuts, avocados, flowers and Maui grown veggies. It was so inspiring! I was stoked to be work trading for a portion of my ticket. I helped in the kitchen every day and was feeling blessed to work beside such awesome raw food chefs. I formed a super-sister bond with one of Kitchen Goddess named Noa. We were creating something delicious that required lots of pineapple coring, so her and I became intertwined over binging on pineapple core until our mouths went numb. Good times :)
I performed and taught hoop classes every day at Raw Spirit! It was a climactic moment for me this past Winter Season. At that same festival, I met a man named Matisha who is known in the aquatic realms Dolphinanda. He takes tourists out to swim with sea creatures. What fun! He blows bubble rings while laying on the bottom of the ocean for dolphins to swim through and play with. We met and he saw me hoop dancing, and decided it would be cool to film me underwater hooping with bubble rings! We made the effort and when the festival was done, swam out quite a ways on Little Beach. He dove down deep and would blow the bubble rings and I would do my best to swim through them. It was fun and I felt very mermaid-ish and dolphin like. The most amazing part of this whole experience was hearing a pod of 60 or so humpback whales that were close by but not visible. Hearing the whales was one of the most epic experiences I've ever had. I could tell the difference between male, female and child. Their voices were enchanting, haunting, and omniscient. It was like listening to everything that this universe has ever known and will ever know. The record of all things is sung within the song of the whales. It is The Akashic Record (God’s Big Book) as a song for our auditory enjoyment and enlightenment. It was profound to say the least. The whale song changed my life. I feel blessed….so grateful and blessed! Thank you, Maui, Matisha and whales :)
After Bliss Camp I enjoyed time to myself hooping on the beach and being a social butterfly around the island. Hoop jams, coffee shops, parties, potlucks and new friends occupied my days and nights. February was upon us, and it was time for SOURCE.
Source is the regional Burning Man on the island of Maui. I knew about SOURCE before hand from my dear sister, Susanna SeaFire. We met years ago in West Virginia, actually. I was stoked she was from Maui, as that was my destination. So, when I finally got to Maui and had time to play with Susanna, we decided to choreograph a fire duet together to perform at SOURCE. It was such a wonderfully fun experience, full of learning, love, depth, and pure passion. I really enjoyed preparing our piece. When it was time to perform at SOURCE, I was in bliss seeing so many beautiful faces around me, and couldn't wait to show my festival family what we had worked on. Susanna and I connected really well and the show went perfectly as planned. I felt very accomplished creatively after this performance, and even more deeply connected to the Art of Performance. I met so many amazing fire-performers and prop builders. There is an AMAZING fire troupe here known as Merkaba Fire. I am looking forward to performing with these amazing people sometime in the near future.
The performance was one beautiful aspect of SOURCE. But not the one that stood out the most. The real experience for me at SOURCE was one that would shape the rest of my festival, my stay on Maui, the rest of my 2011, as well as the rest of my life as I have known it thus far. On February 18, a Full Moon I met a man who's name, at the time, was Wolf...
I would never be the same.
This story is about to get really, really good/intense/passionate/scary/tear-jerking/entertaining/jaw-dropping and informational! Stay tuned...
To be continued....
ALOHA NUI LOA & MAHALO for being the amazing human beings that you are. I honor you and respect you. Thank you for reading about my life! May this story plant seeds of inspiration deep within your soul and may the waters of life nourish all of these dream seeds with love and grace :)
An entire eternity has come and gone in the last 365 days. Today marks one year that I landed on Maui. Today is my Maui Anniversary! :)
I arrived here on 1/11/11 (an auspicious date, indeed.) I arrived after having spent five months in the sweet (yet very wet and cold) surf-side city of Santa Cruz. It was a true blessing to be nurtured by the rooted redwoods before tossing myself into the chaotic realms of the Maui and her mysteries. So, 2011 began for me with a BANG! Aloha, Maui :) I was welcomed with love and grace, having support from friends who I connected with mainland who were now living on Maui. Noah picked me up from the airport, and Heidi hooked me up with a sweet landing pad in her spot in Haiku. It was so amazing to wake up to her making smoothies topped with local bee pollen (it was purple!) and an amazing sunrise outside the window. Within three days I found an E350 Ford Van that I converted into my home on wheels. I found it for $1000 on craigslist. God loves me! The adventure had begun.
My beautiful friend Forest came to visit me in Maui from Santa Cruz. We had formed a very special friendship based on love and sharing, so we shared just that...friendly love and space in my little van for exactly 22 days. We cruised all over the island. We went to Mystic Island Party where I had the pleasure of performing with live electronic/loop artist David Starfire! Mystic Island is such a beautiful gathering. Totally tribal. It occurs in a beautiful setting right on the ocean where you could look out at almost any time and see turtles, dolphins or whales. EPIC music, yoga classes, emotional freedom technique classes, non-violent communication courses, SO many other classes and organic delicious food, all in one place! I met so many amazing souls and felt like I really grounded into the roots community that is Maui. I am so excited about Mystic Island Festival 2012 happening Jan. 26th-30th! I am performing with DJ Starfire again, as well as Jaya Lakshmi & Ananda (who are my favorite Kirtan couple :) I love the way my creative life is continually coming full circle...
Forest and I continued on our journey, floating from the hippie hotspots of Paia, and Makawao, to the waterfalls, sacred pools, jungles and bamboo forests of Hana, all the way to the sunny side for Sunday Drum Circles on Little Beach.
A side-stroy on Little Beach: I'll never forget when I was fire-hooping somewhere in Florida when a stranger said in passing "Little Beach would love you!" "Where is Little Beach?" I wondered. I found out. MAUI. That was one of the main 'omens' that ended up guiding me directly two this other-worldly-wonder. The first time I fire-hooped on Little I received the loudest applause from the most loving, cheering, screaming, enthusiastic audience I had ever witnessed! I cried. I haven't missed a Sunday since (other than when I was on the mainland). I love Little Beach. It has been such an accepting and opportunity offering space in my creative world. I am grateful for this rare gem! Where else is there a beautiful, clothing optional beach with a panoramic view of paradise, complete with whales jumping and hippie's jamming? <3
Only on Maui...
So, back to the timeline. Forest and I had a blast doing acro-yoga and hooping (he wanted to learn and now-a-days he better than ME!:) All through the sunny days and starry nights, we played and laughed. I really appreciated Forest's company and I am grateful for all of the lessons and joy we shared in. I feel like Forest actually carries the redwoods in his soul. It was such a blessing to spend that special time with one of my most special friends!
My entry to Maui was so beautiful, easy and graceful. It paved the way for much love and abundance to occur in my life, and the lives of those around me. I have developed massage clientele on the island, and also sold about fifty hoops that I made and flew over from California when I arrived last year. I felt so good, so at ease, and very much on purpose. Since then, I have purchased some hoop materials and will have hoops available for sale this month at Mystic Island. My massage clientele keeps growing and I have some folks who are learning from me. My life is blessed :)
I am excited to be able to live my dreams of creative sustainably!
After Forest left I enjoyed some time solo on the island activating the hoop scene. I performed as often as I could everywhere I could. Art openings, farmers markets, parties, festivals, etc. I went to this one amazing festival based solely on raw, live, vegan food called Bliss Camp (also known as Raw Spirit Festival) put on by an amazing sprite named Happy Oasis. This was a very intimate gathering of lovely folks who were all on the same page with healthy food and healthy vibes. All of the food was created by hand from freshly foraged fruits, coconuts, avocados, flowers and Maui grown veggies. It was so inspiring! I was stoked to be work trading for a portion of my ticket. I helped in the kitchen every day and was feeling blessed to work beside such awesome raw food chefs. I formed a super-sister bond with one of Kitchen Goddess named Noa. We were creating something delicious that required lots of pineapple coring, so her and I became intertwined over binging on pineapple core until our mouths went numb. Good times :)
I performed and taught hoop classes every day at Raw Spirit! It was a climactic moment for me this past Winter Season. At that same festival, I met a man named Matisha who is known in the aquatic realms Dolphinanda. He takes tourists out to swim with sea creatures. What fun! He blows bubble rings while laying on the bottom of the ocean for dolphins to swim through and play with. We met and he saw me hoop dancing, and decided it would be cool to film me underwater hooping with bubble rings! We made the effort and when the festival was done, swam out quite a ways on Little Beach. He dove down deep and would blow the bubble rings and I would do my best to swim through them. It was fun and I felt very mermaid-ish and dolphin like. The most amazing part of this whole experience was hearing a pod of 60 or so humpback whales that were close by but not visible. Hearing the whales was one of the most epic experiences I've ever had. I could tell the difference between male, female and child. Their voices were enchanting, haunting, and omniscient. It was like listening to everything that this universe has ever known and will ever know. The record of all things is sung within the song of the whales. It is The Akashic Record (God’s Big Book) as a song for our auditory enjoyment and enlightenment. It was profound to say the least. The whale song changed my life. I feel blessed….so grateful and blessed! Thank you, Maui, Matisha and whales :)
After Bliss Camp I enjoyed time to myself hooping on the beach and being a social butterfly around the island. Hoop jams, coffee shops, parties, potlucks and new friends occupied my days and nights. February was upon us, and it was time for SOURCE.
Source is the regional Burning Man on the island of Maui. I knew about SOURCE before hand from my dear sister, Susanna SeaFire. We met years ago in West Virginia, actually. I was stoked she was from Maui, as that was my destination. So, when I finally got to Maui and had time to play with Susanna, we decided to choreograph a fire duet together to perform at SOURCE. It was such a wonderfully fun experience, full of learning, love, depth, and pure passion. I really enjoyed preparing our piece. When it was time to perform at SOURCE, I was in bliss seeing so many beautiful faces around me, and couldn't wait to show my festival family what we had worked on. Susanna and I connected really well and the show went perfectly as planned. I felt very accomplished creatively after this performance, and even more deeply connected to the Art of Performance. I met so many amazing fire-performers and prop builders. There is an AMAZING fire troupe here known as Merkaba Fire. I am looking forward to performing with these amazing people sometime in the near future.
The performance was one beautiful aspect of SOURCE. But not the one that stood out the most. The real experience for me at SOURCE was one that would shape the rest of my festival, my stay on Maui, the rest of my 2011, as well as the rest of my life as I have known it thus far. On February 18, a Full Moon I met a man who's name, at the time, was Wolf...
I would never be the same.
This story is about to get really, really good/intense/passionate/scary/tear-jerking/entertaining/jaw-dropping and informational! Stay tuned...
To be continued....
ALOHA NUI LOA & MAHALO for being the amazing human beings that you are. I honor you and respect you. Thank you for reading about my life! May this story plant seeds of inspiration deep within your soul and may the waters of life nourish all of these dream seeds with love and grace :)
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
A New Dimension
A New Vibration! Heightened sensations! Seeing in shapes, colors, light and sound! This is the Era of New Humanity. I Am, as I see it, the Micro Cosmic Consciousness of the Macro Cosmic Infinite Intelligent Living Universal Mind!
Yes, this is quite the claim. Some may even think of it as an exaggeration or embellishment. Perhaps, even, a lie. The One who says he loves me more than anyone else has gone as far to call me 'crazy'. Let me be crazy then, for I know the truth, it is written in my DNA, embedded in every cell of my being, and resonates within me as a heartbeat and breath. If you believe you are anything less than the God that Created you, you have been successfully brainwashed. I have seen the truth many times on this Earthy and Heavenly realm, yet it seems to fade in it's vibrancy, or at times I can not recall what occurred in such a breath, heat, medicinal or prayer/meditation induced state. On Tuesday August 4th in the year of 2011, I witnessed Life/Love from the perspective of The White Circle, The Void, The Place with No Duality, The Space Between, and the Mind That Created All, and remember and still feel it within me vividly. I felt strongly called to share with all. I am still coming back into this body after being fractal-ed out into Infinity...and beyond. Infinity itself is hard to grasp...can you imagine beyond the Infinite?
I closed my eyes to meditate on Global Healing along with 300 others on Tuesday. It was the fourth day of Qi Revolution Los Angelos. Enlightenment in LA? Pshhh...tough chance. Well, let's re-frame this. It IS the City of Angels! After this experience, I am sure it truly is. The following is the recipe which brought me to the following sequence of vibrant visual images of truth.
The Recipe for Realization.
I partook of a tincture in a tiny blue bottle with a Winged Heart on one side and the Sacred Owl adorning the other. These are two POWERFUL symbols in my life and I felt called to take in these essences. The tincture was crafted with organic sativa, reishi mushrooms, yerba mate, and blended with other immune supporting, brain-healthy Chinese Herbs. In ceremonial style with other light beings of like mind/heart (prayers, blessings, thanks, and reverence for the herb and it's grower, and of course Earth Momma for providing), we partook together, hands in a group spiral. After this beautiful sharing, I gathered my sacred tools and built a little alter underneath the chair I chose. The alter is the next part of the recipe. The alter included:
-Antique Brass Owl (to see as if it were light even if it is dark)
-A Piece of Sacred Vine from Maui (heart opening)
-Fossilized Whale Ear (to listen to all information presented in the Now)
-One Circle (my third Ring. Gifted to me upon my 3rd hoop anniversary)
-Quartz (for Clarity)
-Smoky Quartz (to heal the nations)
-Photo of Yeshua (always in recognition, presence and protection of the Christ Consciousness)
-Mantra of the Violet Flame (I AM Violet Flame! To light ALONE I bow!)
-A few pairs of crystals representing union of Divine Feminine & Divine Masculine
-And the final, and most important, element it turns out:
An image of the Divine Mother Earth being held lovingly in the hands of the Divine Father, with the light grid patterns visable, a fiery phoenix in flight, a baby at the center of the earth with a plant seed sprouting from its belly and bursting out from the center of the earth forming an erupting volcano that shoots light into the Cosmos!
I found this image in Mt. Shasta and had to have it to breathe with. It's been on my altar ever since.
This last image was the one that really came through in the breath work/visualization meditation.
I sat in a special spot. I used the Bio-Mat while sitting in a chair. Have you ever heard of a Bio-Mat? Well, if you have, then you KNOW how amazing they are (worth every crazy penny) and if you have NOT heard of the Bio-Mat, that's ok... Just know that there is a seemingly ordinary 'heating-pad' out there that is actually a combination of amethyst crystals, infrared and far infrared light healing. Super potent! So, I sat my happy ass down on one of these to do the 45 minute long breath work meditation. A good idea :) I melted right away. Time to fly!
My altar is set up, I'm in a super-open-heart-space, feeling nurtured by the heat of the Bio-Mat, and I am listening to the facilitators familiar voice over the sound system. Here we go...
Sink in. Breathe out. Inhale exhale. Repeat. Hold. Give thanks for life, when totally full, blessed with the Holy Breath of Life, drifting into the Void taking the perspective of the Cosmic Eye, The I AM, the consciousness that reveals the largest picture the Infinite Mind could ever fathom where all beings are one and there is nothing but sacred shapes, lights, colors and sounds...the dust of creation...swirling into anything that you choose! Who? Me? Yes. You and the Creator are One. You acknowledge this, and it seems so simple! What an amazing feeling to connect with the Most High-Almighty Presence of All that Is and see yourself as an Infinite Universe inside of it. You are creating your whole Universe! I look around with my Third Eye and see the sound of the other light beings as they breathe. I see the sound of their breath as pillars of light shooting from the crown like umbilical cords to the sky, becoming one in the Great White Circle of Collective Light, as it moves together, balancing the benevolent collective darkness. Yin. Yang. I become the Light. I take the form of a woman and begin to run. I am running so fast and intensely that I morph back into the light where I roll out again into fleshly form as White Wolf galloping swiftly and with Purpose. I run in timelessness. I stop running. I am pregnant with the world and sit to rest beneath a giant grandmother redwood. I sit instead of lay, propped against the tree with belly to sky, front paws resting on my warm tummy and back legs spread open. From here I morph back into female form, still in this vulnerable position and leave the earth right where it is as I detach somehow from it, and begin holding it in my hands as opposed to it being in my belly. The earth is in the same place but my body moves. This is where the image on the alter comes into play. I am now holding the earth in my hands and seeing Sacred Geometric shapes begin to surround it. To be specific with the shape I saw, it is the Sri Yantra. I also happened to be wearing this same shape coupled with black tourmaline in a pendant around my neck, that I had been gifted that day. This image came through strong, and showed me that this is the shape that all of our stars and planets collectively create around the planet. There are billions of stars, and billions of galaxies, so it is certainly somewhere in the patterns, and I am feeling blessed to have seen it. Part of me feels totally crazy writing this but the rest of me is simply grateful to have this vision to hold on to. It gives me some sort of hope. The kind of hope that feels like God whispers into your ear "I Have a Plan. It is all Divine. Find the Gift." And so, I seek. I create. Already knowing the blessings is here, in this moment, as I hold the Earth and all manifested on it in my very, wrinkled, young, old hands. I am Madain, Mother and Crone all at Once. Woman and Wolf united in the Feminine.
From here my consciousness takes on another form and I become the Sacred Owl. I am White with this iridescent metallic bio armor for feathers. A beautiful snowy owl, with all seeing eyes. I seemed to be certain type of guardian owl for the Fifth (Divine Communication) Dimension. The Sacred Brass Owl was sitting on the alter underneath me. I feel like the metal enhanced the essence of the Owl, and I was in tune enough due to the rhythmic breathing that I could pick up the spiritual fragrance of this totem regarded so Sacred.
Again, feeling a little crazy, but such imaginative pictures still resonate in my mind even weeks after. It was real, because I can still feel it. You know how you dream but you know it's real from time to time? The blurred line between waking life and sleep. It's called Lucid Dreaming. This happens when you sleep, and it happens when induced by breath or other modalities. I was in a Lucid State and what I was experiencing felt just as real as typing on these dirty keys of my mostly-used up MacBook. Reality exists in ALL forms, from dirty keys to majestic visions of White Owls while resting in perfect states of consciousness meditating for world peace with 300 others. It feels good, and there is no judgment because our hearts are strong.
White Owl was beautiful, she had slanted eyes with feathered lashes and a sharp and sexy beak. Her feathers were organic yet metallic with a pearly iridescent coating. She reflected the light beautifully, shooting it off in thousands of directions, creating a soft illuminated halo around her entire being. She spread her wings fully and walked towards me. I experienced this from two perspectives. I also was her walking towards me, as well as the one she was walking towards. She wrapped her wings around the earth and was also somehow behind me. I could feel her wings wrapped around me, too, for it is a dream and all is possible. Without words she explains that this is the Protective Dream Coat and I am Safe to dream AWAKE and not fear, for she is the Owl of White Light nesting in Gratitude by Day and in Warrior Flight by Night seeing with her Owl Eyes that all is in Truth and Light!
In present moment I can tell you that I have seen White Owls almost daily ever since this vision and have had four owl feathers gifted to me as well. My boyfriend, Wolf, had two dream catchers made when I returned from this journey, both adorned with owl feathers. Synchronicity abound! The Sacred Brass Owl provided MUCH wisdom to me in my breath work on that day. Thank you, White Owl of Light! I embrace your essence and honor you as a servant to the Great Creator, the One Who Is of All Things.
There is a point in the meditation where we take 36 Warriors Breaths and continue with the final locks and holds that make the breath work so powerful, and this is the point where I begin to come back into the room, and without opening my eyes I am seeing many of the people's faces that are in the room. I am existing in what feels like multiple dimensions. I know, sounds crazy, and it is. You have to lose your mind in order to find it! I am present in the room and feeling so immensely blessed with the experience I have been gifted. I feel connected to each person in the room on a soul level. Later, when I was able to make eye contact with the attendees, I could see that they felt and saw it too, whatever it was. It was such a pure and precious awakening. I was held in a very safe space for a few days as I continued to experience this Oneness, and found a strength and presence that I had never known. I meditated most of the time and found my communication easy and no emotional attachments to any words being spoken from myself or others. I felt transparent, like all negativity just passed through me and Spirit/God/Christ Consciousness had an easy and purposeful time flowing through my body as a clean and fluid vessel. Let my body always be a Temple, clean, rested and ready to serve My Creator!
In the 24 hours that followed this amazing meditation experience, I had visions of Gandhi and Yogananda while meditating in the Self Realization Fellowship gardens and was blessed by the presence of two white swans and a red dragonfly. I was gifted the incredible honor of attending Dr. Rev. Michael Beckwith's sermon at Agape International, and listened to his lovely wife, Ricki, sing her heart songs. His message? HONOR THE BODY TEMPLE! It was right in alignment. I felt so welcomed by the presence in that church community and many of my spiritual dreams were realized in that moment, as I listened to one of the most influential characters on my journey speak words that resonated in my bones as truth. On top of all of this, somewhere on this time line I was eating at Blossoming Lotus Raw/Vegan Cafe and had the most delicious, tantalizing and delectable food on the planet. I feel that my state of consciousness had everything to do with it because something unique, sexy and totally enlightened manifested in my reality. I had an orgasm eating raw cheesecake. Yes, really. A full on climactic orgasm. The smell, the texture, the taste of different nuts and sweet pastes all blending together on my tongue aroused my entire body. My yoni began to pulsate and the energy arose so strongly that I had no chance, or desire for that matter, to stop it! I allowed it to flow and moaned and laughed, made yummy sounds and blushed while I enjoyed bite after bite, in pure ecstasy all the while. I sat between two paintings, each of a White Owl. Hmmm...again, no coincidences. The Tribe around me was impressed that I could be so sensitive and responsive to the food. I was in deep gratitude to the chef! What high vibration food. I could tell that someone had chanted and prayed over that food while preparing it. My life is totally complete now that I have had this single experience alone. Orgasmic Raw Cheesecake? Every Scorpio Females dream...
So, as you have read, this experience lasted for days. I was in a state of heightened consciousness for an extended period of time. This has happened to me a few times before. Once, for FOUR months! Again, the breath work. It's called the Nine Breath Method as facilitated by Jeff Primack. I put my own spin on it and hold the structure of the practice but sometimes switch around the breaths to my liking. Every one is different and produces different yet profound effects/sensations. I did it every day, twice a day for an entire four months. It changed my life. I began my travels around that time, giving away or selling all of my possessions. Referring my massage clients out to other professional therapists. Packing up my car and touring the country spreading love, hoops, Qi Gong, Breathing and being the Muse for All!
Another example of an extended feeling of enlightenment was my time living on Maui. I felt like no matter what happened, I was totally floating in this bubble of love and protection. Earth Angels always around as my community, freedom to be me at my most vulnerable and open, and the contrast of third dimensional reality to show me the fine lines. Really show me. In Maui, I would use the breath work to dive down deep into the ocean to the bottom, holding my breath and slowing down my heartbeat so I could hear them...the whales. What a beautiful symphony! As many as 70 whales all singing their songs in harmony and freedom. These moments are brief, when we really feel 'enlightened'. They are just examples to show us that every day holds that potential. It is up to us to create it into reality through our thoughts, words and conscious actions. It can come through breath, whale songs, a cup of tea, changing a diaper, opening a door for an elder, holding our Beloveds hand, or simply being grateful in each and every breath.
I feel like the transmission is complete. This blog may be a little random and I am leaving it mostly unedited. These are the raw words and thoughts of The Light being Shellie White.
Aloha!
www.thehealthyhooper.com
Yes, this is quite the claim. Some may even think of it as an exaggeration or embellishment. Perhaps, even, a lie. The One who says he loves me more than anyone else has gone as far to call me 'crazy'. Let me be crazy then, for I know the truth, it is written in my DNA, embedded in every cell of my being, and resonates within me as a heartbeat and breath. If you believe you are anything less than the God that Created you, you have been successfully brainwashed. I have seen the truth many times on this Earthy and Heavenly realm, yet it seems to fade in it's vibrancy, or at times I can not recall what occurred in such a breath, heat, medicinal or prayer/meditation induced state. On Tuesday August 4th in the year of 2011, I witnessed Life/Love from the perspective of The White Circle, The Void, The Place with No Duality, The Space Between, and the Mind That Created All, and remember and still feel it within me vividly. I felt strongly called to share with all. I am still coming back into this body after being fractal-ed out into Infinity...and beyond. Infinity itself is hard to grasp...can you imagine beyond the Infinite?
I closed my eyes to meditate on Global Healing along with 300 others on Tuesday. It was the fourth day of Qi Revolution Los Angelos. Enlightenment in LA? Pshhh...tough chance. Well, let's re-frame this. It IS the City of Angels! After this experience, I am sure it truly is. The following is the recipe which brought me to the following sequence of vibrant visual images of truth.
The Recipe for Realization.
-Antique Brass Owl (to see as if it were light even if it is dark)
-A Piece of Sacred Vine from Maui (heart opening)
-Fossilized Whale Ear (to listen to all information presented in the Now)
-One Circle (my third Ring. Gifted to me upon my 3rd hoop anniversary)
-Quartz (for Clarity)
-Smoky Quartz (to heal the nations)
-Photo of Yeshua (always in recognition, presence and protection of the Christ Consciousness)
-Mantra of the Violet Flame (I AM Violet Flame! To light ALONE I bow!)
-A few pairs of crystals representing union of Divine Feminine & Divine Masculine
-And the final, and most important, element it turns out:
An image of the Divine Mother Earth being held lovingly in the hands of the Divine Father, with the light grid patterns visable, a fiery phoenix in flight, a baby at the center of the earth with a plant seed sprouting from its belly and bursting out from the center of the earth forming an erupting volcano that shoots light into the Cosmos!
I found this image in Mt. Shasta and had to have it to breathe with. It's been on my altar ever since.
This last image was the one that really came through in the breath work/visualization meditation.
I sat in a special spot. I used the Bio-Mat while sitting in a chair. Have you ever heard of a Bio-Mat? Well, if you have, then you KNOW how amazing they are (worth every crazy penny) and if you have NOT heard of the Bio-Mat, that's ok... Just know that there is a seemingly ordinary 'heating-pad' out there that is actually a combination of amethyst crystals, infrared and far infrared light healing. Super potent! So, I sat my happy ass down on one of these to do the 45 minute long breath work meditation. A good idea :) I melted right away. Time to fly!
My altar is set up, I'm in a super-open-heart-space, feeling nurtured by the heat of the Bio-Mat, and I am listening to the facilitators familiar voice over the sound system. Here we go...
Sink in. Breathe out. Inhale exhale. Repeat. Hold. Give thanks for life, when totally full, blessed with the Holy Breath of Life, drifting into the Void taking the perspective of the Cosmic Eye, The I AM, the consciousness that reveals the largest picture the Infinite Mind could ever fathom where all beings are one and there is nothing but sacred shapes, lights, colors and sounds...the dust of creation...swirling into anything that you choose! Who? Me? Yes. You and the Creator are One. You acknowledge this, and it seems so simple! What an amazing feeling to connect with the Most High-Almighty Presence of All that Is and see yourself as an Infinite Universe inside of it. You are creating your whole Universe! I look around with my Third Eye and see the sound of the other light beings as they breathe. I see the sound of their breath as pillars of light shooting from the crown like umbilical cords to the sky, becoming one in the Great White Circle of Collective Light, as it moves together, balancing the benevolent collective darkness. Yin. Yang. I become the Light. I take the form of a woman and begin to run. I am running so fast and intensely that I morph back into the light where I roll out again into fleshly form as White Wolf galloping swiftly and with Purpose. I run in timelessness. I stop running. I am pregnant with the world and sit to rest beneath a giant grandmother redwood. I sit instead of lay, propped against the tree with belly to sky, front paws resting on my warm tummy and back legs spread open. From here I morph back into female form, still in this vulnerable position and leave the earth right where it is as I detach somehow from it, and begin holding it in my hands as opposed to it being in my belly. The earth is in the same place but my body moves. This is where the image on the alter comes into play. I am now holding the earth in my hands and seeing Sacred Geometric shapes begin to surround it. To be specific with the shape I saw, it is the Sri Yantra. I also happened to be wearing this same shape coupled with black tourmaline in a pendant around my neck, that I had been gifted that day. This image came through strong, and showed me that this is the shape that all of our stars and planets collectively create around the planet. There are billions of stars, and billions of galaxies, so it is certainly somewhere in the patterns, and I am feeling blessed to have seen it. Part of me feels totally crazy writing this but the rest of me is simply grateful to have this vision to hold on to. It gives me some sort of hope. The kind of hope that feels like God whispers into your ear "I Have a Plan. It is all Divine. Find the Gift." And so, I seek. I create. Already knowing the blessings is here, in this moment, as I hold the Earth and all manifested on it in my very, wrinkled, young, old hands. I am Madain, Mother and Crone all at Once. Woman and Wolf united in the Feminine.
White Owl was beautiful, she had slanted eyes with feathered lashes and a sharp and sexy beak. Her feathers were organic yet metallic with a pearly iridescent coating. She reflected the light beautifully, shooting it off in thousands of directions, creating a soft illuminated halo around her entire being. She spread her wings fully and walked towards me. I experienced this from two perspectives. I also was her walking towards me, as well as the one she was walking towards. She wrapped her wings around the earth and was also somehow behind me. I could feel her wings wrapped around me, too, for it is a dream and all is possible. Without words she explains that this is the Protective Dream Coat and I am Safe to dream AWAKE and not fear, for she is the Owl of White Light nesting in Gratitude by Day and in Warrior Flight by Night seeing with her Owl Eyes that all is in Truth and Light!
In present moment I can tell you that I have seen White Owls almost daily ever since this vision and have had four owl feathers gifted to me as well. My boyfriend, Wolf, had two dream catchers made when I returned from this journey, both adorned with owl feathers. Synchronicity abound! The Sacred Brass Owl provided MUCH wisdom to me in my breath work on that day. Thank you, White Owl of Light! I embrace your essence and honor you as a servant to the Great Creator, the One Who Is of All Things.
There is a point in the meditation where we take 36 Warriors Breaths and continue with the final locks and holds that make the breath work so powerful, and this is the point where I begin to come back into the room, and without opening my eyes I am seeing many of the people's faces that are in the room. I am existing in what feels like multiple dimensions. I know, sounds crazy, and it is. You have to lose your mind in order to find it! I am present in the room and feeling so immensely blessed with the experience I have been gifted. I feel connected to each person in the room on a soul level. Later, when I was able to make eye contact with the attendees, I could see that they felt and saw it too, whatever it was. It was such a pure and precious awakening. I was held in a very safe space for a few days as I continued to experience this Oneness, and found a strength and presence that I had never known. I meditated most of the time and found my communication easy and no emotional attachments to any words being spoken from myself or others. I felt transparent, like all negativity just passed through me and Spirit/God/Christ Consciousness had an easy and purposeful time flowing through my body as a clean and fluid vessel. Let my body always be a Temple, clean, rested and ready to serve My Creator!
In the 24 hours that followed this amazing meditation experience, I had visions of Gandhi and Yogananda while meditating in the Self Realization Fellowship gardens and was blessed by the presence of two white swans and a red dragonfly. I was gifted the incredible honor of attending Dr. Rev. Michael Beckwith's sermon at Agape International, and listened to his lovely wife, Ricki, sing her heart songs. His message? HONOR THE BODY TEMPLE! It was right in alignment. I felt so welcomed by the presence in that church community and many of my spiritual dreams were realized in that moment, as I listened to one of the most influential characters on my journey speak words that resonated in my bones as truth. On top of all of this, somewhere on this time line I was eating at Blossoming Lotus Raw/Vegan Cafe and had the most delicious, tantalizing and delectable food on the planet. I feel that my state of consciousness had everything to do with it because something unique, sexy and totally enlightened manifested in my reality. I had an orgasm eating raw cheesecake. Yes, really. A full on climactic orgasm. The smell, the texture, the taste of different nuts and sweet pastes all blending together on my tongue aroused my entire body. My yoni began to pulsate and the energy arose so strongly that I had no chance, or desire for that matter, to stop it! I allowed it to flow and moaned and laughed, made yummy sounds and blushed while I enjoyed bite after bite, in pure ecstasy all the while. I sat between two paintings, each of a White Owl. Hmmm...again, no coincidences. The Tribe around me was impressed that I could be so sensitive and responsive to the food. I was in deep gratitude to the chef! What high vibration food. I could tell that someone had chanted and prayed over that food while preparing it. My life is totally complete now that I have had this single experience alone. Orgasmic Raw Cheesecake? Every Scorpio Females dream...
So, as you have read, this experience lasted for days. I was in a state of heightened consciousness for an extended period of time. This has happened to me a few times before. Once, for FOUR months! Again, the breath work. It's called the Nine Breath Method as facilitated by Jeff Primack. I put my own spin on it and hold the structure of the practice but sometimes switch around the breaths to my liking. Every one is different and produces different yet profound effects/sensations. I did it every day, twice a day for an entire four months. It changed my life. I began my travels around that time, giving away or selling all of my possessions. Referring my massage clients out to other professional therapists. Packing up my car and touring the country spreading love, hoops, Qi Gong, Breathing and being the Muse for All!
I feel like the transmission is complete. This blog may be a little random and I am leaving it mostly unedited. These are the raw words and thoughts of The Light being Shellie White.
Aloha!
www.thehealthyhooper.com
Friday, January 14, 2011
I Heart California
What a crazy five months of wonderfulness and fun I had in the incredible state of California. Now that I have landed on the island of Maui, I am feeling it is time to reflect on my most amazing California Adventure.
The essence of California was captured in the green. The most beautiful hearts, and heads of lettuce I've ever seen! Everything was local, everything felt cleaner.
But by the time the Winter came I felt the need to switch the scene. I truly harvested myself, cultivating the forest floor of my soul. Cleansing the karmic root amongst the wise Redwoods. Connecting with the ones who were connected, realizing we are all connected As One.
California showed me the true community. People living with people and not televisions. Group homes. Families. Farms and real food. It is a real way of life. We are able to live as a unit. As a Hive. I watched the bees and the the beekeeper work symbiotically in San Diego . The beekeeper said 'The bees are a meditation in life. It is best to be approached with tenderness and gentility." These were the lessons. They kept coming in Santa Cruz. The Forest taught me the way of the Gentle Wo/Man. The Peaceful Warrior/ess. The Tenderness. The tender of the Fire. I am the one who Nurtures and is Nurtured. We are all connected in root. Do it for your family as you would do it for yourself. The Earth is our home. We feed each other. Share! Trust it is all provided.
It is a good thing that the essence of California was Trust, because trust can really be put to test on the small, remote island of Maui, in the middle of the Pacific Ocean where one is closer the Japan than the place she once knew as Home. My wild, young heart is untamed, happy and eternally free! My adventures in San Diego, Santa Cruz, Humbolt and Carmel prepared my heart and head for Maui. For this, I am grateful.
San Diego was such a magical trip! My first time in California. I was greeting by my Qi Family and stayed with my new soul-twin Anne, who lived with Bee Keepers and fighters of Food Justice. Anne fed me rooster that she cleaned and plucked and cooked. We passed our Level One Qi Gong Certification together. I sold hoops and taught hoops and did all kinds of Qi Gong and went to Dance Church and fell all kinds of in love with life in ways I never knew possible! Off to Santa Cruz to facilitate healing at Hoop Camp. I'll miss you SD!
Hoop Camp at Pema Osa Ling Buddhist Retreat Center was phenomenal. I set up my massage table in a circle of Redwood trees. When my clients laid down to look up, they saw this amazing tree canopy with sunlight streaming through. The healing begun before my hands even touched them. It was one of the most rewarding experiences of my life. Truly. After Hoop Camp I stayed with my soul sister, Taylor, for a bit which was super-sweet. She helped me while I was transitioning into the cold, wet weather in California and made sure I was provided for. Much gratitude! I left Santa Cruz to check out Humbolt and spend some time in the Giant Redwoods. I am sooooo glad I did...
I was humbled in Giant Trees of Humbolt. I honored them, each of them. I danced amongst the trunks and blossomed. A budding occured. A buddha I became. Each one of you, the same. Unfold. Behold.
I spent Halloween and my Birthday alone in the middle of the Redwoods in silence. I listened to the wolves howl and slept in the trunk of a tree. I meditated on the rock until the day turned to nights. Until birds songs turned to cricket chirps and the air became cool and crisp. This time was special to me, and I connected with a Life Force from the Roots that I had not yet felt. I wasn't sure what to do after that. Then Renee called. "I have folks in San Jose who want massage from you and I would love for you to stay with me," she says. Off to San Jose!
I arrived in San Jose to Renee's house feeling like kind of a gross hippie, actually. I needed a shower and to wash my clothes. She took me right in and made sure i got clean and fed and was amazed at how I transformed after a little self-care. I stayed with Renee and went to San Jose hoop jams, saw massage clients in her living room every week, and made art and wrote poetry while she worked on her art and words, as well. We danced in the back yard and had tea and tokes in front of her fire place. It was so simple. I was so happy. I love you, Renee! I had been spending a lot of time in Santa Cruz while in San Jose so I decided to rent a room there. I love and miss you, Renee!
I found a perfect room in the perfect spot in the middle of the redwoods in Aptos, which was just two miles from Santa Cruz. I lived with Aly Love and the Kitty Sunshine and life was beautiful as we cooked and chatted. I spent time with my beautiful friend Forest in the woods and by the fire. Forest and I found a familiar friendship that is so special to me! Aly worked out of the house so I made art and lit incense and wandered around in the trees, letting them speak to my heart. I cleansed and cleaned the corners of my soul. For one month I lived there, having a beautiful home amongst the wise woods. It was hard to leave that spot. Maui, however, is calling strong...
I spent Thanksgiving in Santa Cruz with my Family from Florida in Flow and Gratitude. I was cozy with my Tribe from the East as we gathered on the West with new souls and filled bowls and seconds and desert. Turkey with Taylor, Matthias, Corrine and Kyer. Purrr-fection!
I ventured back to San Diego for a while to practice and study The Bronnikov Method, which led me to understand that I am creating my reality, I have control of my body and brain, and I am the One that I have waited for. Big downloads! Back to Santa Cruz.
I spent Christmas in Santa Cruz with new Tribe. I found the Presence in the Stillness on the Eve of the Birth of the New Son. Christmas came full circle at Deer Heart's lovely abode in the Santa Cruz Mountains. Only in California can one go to a gathering that celebrates (well organized, mind you) each religious story of the Season with song and celebration, acknowledging the power of the ritual with practice and intention (and a yummy raw/vegan dinner)! We celebrated Christmas time with Christianity, Hanukah and Solstice. I absorbed the Vibration of each master and devotee. I honored each theory in Reverence and paid extra homage to the Christ, as it was the Way in which I came into this World. I was put here on Purpose, and it has been acknowledged. It was a beautiful Celebration indeed. My vegan mashed potatoes changed peoples lives. And that...was my Christmas wish. I experienced my first Christmas away from blood family AND with a burst ear drum. In the middle of the Santa Cruz Mountains surrounded by a family that loves everyone all the time, no fear was in my heart. Only a deep admiration of the Spirit, the soul circle gathered around me, and my peace of mind. The silence from my burst eardrum was a blessing, as I listened to Spirit whisper the most important message of all: Step forward. You are the light.
I rang in the New Year with Kit spinning Fire Rings, Bird of Prey spinning beats to inspire, some Hoola Monsters to stomp it in right, and danced and twirled the entire night! I danced and flew and sang and blew kisses, moving my body for Source like it's my job. Because it is.
I glowed in the dark with rings of rainbows. I rounded up some partners with my lasso of love and we acted as through the world was our stage, being our boldest selves in the song and slight silences in between. 01.01.2011. The Countdown was on! Happy YOU year!
On 1.11.11 I was to leave for Maui. I was already missing California but so very excited for my Maui adventure!
Pulling myself from the super-cushy love vibe of Santa Cruz was hard. I miss my girls in San Diego, too! I fell in love with the Redwood Giants and one day will be back in California. I will be in Santa Cruz for Hoop Camp for sure in September. Perhaps, just maybe, this is where I will choose to make home. This gypsy still has much to explore, but the West Coast is in the running for 'Home' when it comes time.
Five months in California was such good soul medicine. Do it if you can. For now, I revel in the womb of Mother Maui, where I am transforming and being reborn as we speak. Layers stripped. Skin shed. Feather's molted. A new being arises. Aloha Nui Loa to you all. Thank you for reading my words and wandering with my Spirit. Blessings!
The essence of California was captured in the green. The most beautiful hearts, and heads of lettuce I've ever seen! Everything was local, everything felt cleaner.
But by the time the Winter came I felt the need to switch the scene. I truly harvested myself, cultivating the forest floor of my soul. Cleansing the karmic root amongst the wise Redwoods. Connecting with the ones who were connected, realizing we are all connected As One.
California showed me the true community. People living with people and not televisions. Group homes. Families. Farms and real food. It is a real way of life. We are able to live as a unit. As a Hive. I watched the bees and the the beekeeper work symbiotically in San Diego . The beekeeper said 'The bees are a meditation in life. It is best to be approached with tenderness and gentility." These were the lessons. They kept coming in Santa Cruz. The Forest taught me the way of the Gentle Wo/Man. The Peaceful Warrior/ess. The Tenderness. The tender of the Fire. I am the one who Nurtures and is Nurtured. We are all connected in root. Do it for your family as you would do it for yourself. The Earth is our home. We feed each other. Share! Trust it is all provided.
It is a good thing that the essence of California was Trust, because trust can really be put to test on the small, remote island of Maui, in the middle of the Pacific Ocean where one is closer the Japan than the place she once knew as Home. My wild, young heart is untamed, happy and eternally free! My adventures in San Diego, Santa Cruz, Humbolt and Carmel prepared my heart and head for Maui. For this, I am grateful.
San Diego was such a magical trip! My first time in California. I was greeting by my Qi Family and stayed with my new soul-twin Anne, who lived with Bee Keepers and fighters of Food Justice. Anne fed me rooster that she cleaned and plucked and cooked. We passed our Level One Qi Gong Certification together. I sold hoops and taught hoops and did all kinds of Qi Gong and went to Dance Church and fell all kinds of in love with life in ways I never knew possible! Off to Santa Cruz to facilitate healing at Hoop Camp. I'll miss you SD!
Hoop Camp at Pema Osa Ling Buddhist Retreat Center was phenomenal. I set up my massage table in a circle of Redwood trees. When my clients laid down to look up, they saw this amazing tree canopy with sunlight streaming through. The healing begun before my hands even touched them. It was one of the most rewarding experiences of my life. Truly. After Hoop Camp I stayed with my soul sister, Taylor, for a bit which was super-sweet. She helped me while I was transitioning into the cold, wet weather in California and made sure I was provided for. Much gratitude! I left Santa Cruz to check out Humbolt and spend some time in the Giant Redwoods. I am sooooo glad I did...
I was humbled in Giant Trees of Humbolt. I honored them, each of them. I danced amongst the trunks and blossomed. A budding occured. A buddha I became. Each one of you, the same. Unfold. Behold.
I spent Halloween and my Birthday alone in the middle of the Redwoods in silence. I listened to the wolves howl and slept in the trunk of a tree. I meditated on the rock until the day turned to nights. Until birds songs turned to cricket chirps and the air became cool and crisp. This time was special to me, and I connected with a Life Force from the Roots that I had not yet felt. I wasn't sure what to do after that. Then Renee called. "I have folks in San Jose who want massage from you and I would love for you to stay with me," she says. Off to San Jose!
I arrived in San Jose to Renee's house feeling like kind of a gross hippie, actually. I needed a shower and to wash my clothes. She took me right in and made sure i got clean and fed and was amazed at how I transformed after a little self-care. I stayed with Renee and went to San Jose hoop jams, saw massage clients in her living room every week, and made art and wrote poetry while she worked on her art and words, as well. We danced in the back yard and had tea and tokes in front of her fire place. It was so simple. I was so happy. I love you, Renee! I had been spending a lot of time in Santa Cruz while in San Jose so I decided to rent a room there. I love and miss you, Renee!
I found a perfect room in the perfect spot in the middle of the redwoods in Aptos, which was just two miles from Santa Cruz. I lived with Aly Love and the Kitty Sunshine and life was beautiful as we cooked and chatted. I spent time with my beautiful friend Forest in the woods and by the fire. Forest and I found a familiar friendship that is so special to me! Aly worked out of the house so I made art and lit incense and wandered around in the trees, letting them speak to my heart. I cleansed and cleaned the corners of my soul. For one month I lived there, having a beautiful home amongst the wise woods. It was hard to leave that spot. Maui, however, is calling strong...
I spent Thanksgiving in Santa Cruz with my Family from Florida in Flow and Gratitude. I was cozy with my Tribe from the East as we gathered on the West with new souls and filled bowls and seconds and desert. Turkey with Taylor, Matthias, Corrine and Kyer. Purrr-fection!
I ventured back to San Diego for a while to practice and study The Bronnikov Method, which led me to understand that I am creating my reality, I have control of my body and brain, and I am the One that I have waited for. Big downloads! Back to Santa Cruz.
I spent Christmas in Santa Cruz with new Tribe. I found the Presence in the Stillness on the Eve of the Birth of the New Son. Christmas came full circle at Deer Heart's lovely abode in the Santa Cruz Mountains. Only in California can one go to a gathering that celebrates (well organized, mind you) each religious story of the Season with song and celebration, acknowledging the power of the ritual with practice and intention (and a yummy raw/vegan dinner)! We celebrated Christmas time with Christianity, Hanukah and Solstice. I absorbed the Vibration of each master and devotee. I honored each theory in Reverence and paid extra homage to the Christ, as it was the Way in which I came into this World. I was put here on Purpose, and it has been acknowledged. It was a beautiful Celebration indeed. My vegan mashed potatoes changed peoples lives. And that...was my Christmas wish. I experienced my first Christmas away from blood family AND with a burst ear drum. In the middle of the Santa Cruz Mountains surrounded by a family that loves everyone all the time, no fear was in my heart. Only a deep admiration of the Spirit, the soul circle gathered around me, and my peace of mind. The silence from my burst eardrum was a blessing, as I listened to Spirit whisper the most important message of all: Step forward. You are the light.
I rang in the New Year with Kit spinning Fire Rings, Bird of Prey spinning beats to inspire, some Hoola Monsters to stomp it in right, and danced and twirled the entire night! I danced and flew and sang and blew kisses, moving my body for Source like it's my job. Because it is.
I glowed in the dark with rings of rainbows. I rounded up some partners with my lasso of love and we acted as through the world was our stage, being our boldest selves in the song and slight silences in between. 01.01.2011. The Countdown was on! Happy YOU year!
On 1.11.11 I was to leave for Maui. I was already missing California but so very excited for my Maui adventure!
Pulling myself from the super-cushy love vibe of Santa Cruz was hard. I miss my girls in San Diego, too! I fell in love with the Redwood Giants and one day will be back in California. I will be in Santa Cruz for Hoop Camp for sure in September. Perhaps, just maybe, this is where I will choose to make home. This gypsy still has much to explore, but the West Coast is in the running for 'Home' when it comes time.
Five months in California was such good soul medicine. Do it if you can. For now, I revel in the womb of Mother Maui, where I am transforming and being reborn as we speak. Layers stripped. Skin shed. Feather's molted. A new being arises. Aloha Nui Loa to you all. Thank you for reading my words and wandering with my Spirit. Blessings!
Friday, December 24, 2010
Silent Night
I have ruptured my right ear drum. What an amazing Christmas gift!
I am being serious. It really is a gift. Follow my words as I unwrap it slowly, as my my syllables curve like candy canes, telling a story and that is deeper that your stocking, and fuller than your face. I hope you are enjoying your gluten-free cookies and organic local apple cider, hot and spiced inside of your mug. I hope your dinners are delicious and your communion with Tribe is Divine.
I went to the doctor yesterday after six days of hearing loss in my right ear, experiencing a constant high pitched frequency, and no results from multiple 'alternative' attempts at alleviating the muffled hearing and slight pressure. As an obvious advocate for natural health, I was resistant, humbled, skeptical and, to be honest, scared to go to 'The Doctor'. However, It was now or never, as it was Christmas Eve, and places were closing up. It's my ear. I only have two. It's my hearing. An actual sense. I only have six ;) Not a casual commodity. As I value my health and sharp hearing, I couldn't wait any longer. I needed someone to look inside with a microscope and take away the mystery. I felt my gut sink as the doc told me the news. The one fear I had was confirmed.
Ruptured ear drum. A tear in the tympanic membrane.
I intuitively feel that the physical cause of this lies somewhere between the intensity of the energy of the workshop and a high decibel sound burst from my ear bud during a intense hoop sesh. The metaphysical causality is layered in a more dynamic fashion. Ah, now the wrapping paper is off. Ribbons and paper ripped off. Nothing to hide! Let's open the box.
It happened on Saturday afternoon. I was in the thick of the Bronnikov workshop and needed to ground myself during a lunch break with some authentic hoop dance. I put in my ear buds and listened to some conscious skull candy (music), all the while moving and grooving to the delicious beats. I had been feeling some pressure in my head earlier in the day, a common occurrence with such Shen (Spirit) oriented energy work. I danced hard for a solid hour. I turned down the volume when a clashy punk song came on. I literally had the thought 'Wow, that really hurts my ears'. I took out my earphones shortly after and had the feeling the my right ear needed to pop. It wouldn't. My head felt clogged. I couldn't hear clearly out of my ear, as everything sounded muffled. My Qi family assisted with a bit of energetic love, but no avail. The day progressed and the pain got worse. My ear felt hot. Jaw aching. My right tonsil was pulsating. It hurt so bad I actually cried. I cried and had the memory of being an infant in my crib, my ear throbbing and I am screaming and no one comes. This remembrance made me cry harder. I sobbed for a solid three minutes and felt better. The pain was even down a degree. I am grateful for this release.
I did my best with warm homeopathic oils, mucous digesting enzymes, raw garlic (eating it and via drops), ear candling (twice), energetic alignment of lymph flow, mitake mushroom immune support, grapefruit seed extract, juicing, being void of dairy and ear wax dissolving drops; all the while thinking it was an ear infection. At least my immune system is kickin'! That's a fun stocking stuffer :)
Resistance leads to breakthrough. The skeptic in me arose big time while I was attempting to heal my ear. I was skeptical of the Bronnikov Method, thinking it had something to do with my ear hurting. I became skeptical of alternative healing techniques, as I was doing 'everything right' and nothing was working. I became skeptical of the way I was living my life, wondering why this 'happened to me', the 'super-positive girl'. The words of the Buddha ringing in my ear (literally) 'Doubt everything. Find your own light." I have been in a place of doubt and confusion as my body felt foreign and I was without an answer. I was in fear and placing external causality. Yet, the issue lies within. Literally, inside my head. I had to consult my heart to get to the root of the matter.
During the last seven days I have been contemplating the 'purpose' for this hearing loss. What am I not hearing? Am I really listening? Listening is more important than talking. My voice is so loud inside of my own head right now that talking doesn't seem as appealing, and listening requires extra effort and clarity of communication in every moment. As my physical hearing sense was depleted, my inner voice became louder. There is clarity within the muffled sounds. The message as clear as a Silver Bell, ringing in the crisp cool air. I have become more aware of the Truth within me, the truth within us all: We Are God.
Wow, now that's a package. Merry Christmas to me! I love that this is my realization during 'Christmas Time'. This is a time where traditionally Christians celebrate the birth of Jesus, The Son of Man. Emmanuel. Yeshua. The Christ. The Savior and Redeemer. Today, I celebrate unwrapping the gift and knowing that this Christ Consciousness is inside of me, as still as the Star in East, as sure as the Rising Son, as powerful as the miracles of the man himself. 'Greater works than these you will do', he said. I honor this, and step forward in this service.
Wait! I see more in this gift. It is like the little Russian dolls. You open one, and smaller one lies inside.
I realized I had not taken the time to just be still and be silent. I finally did this. I lit a fire and sat down and listened to the high pitched sound inside my ear. I accepted that a tiny hole existed in my ear drum. I honored my hearing, my loss of hearing, and the skepticism I have been experiencing. All of the conversations I have been having with others about God Consciousness started swirling in my head. All of the workshop material I have learned on various topics over the last 5 years began appearing. All sorts of diverse people, places, and images of worship came into my consciousness. As I realized we are smack in the middle of the time of year where all sorts of people honor God in all sorts of ways, another message became clear.
Every Path is a Path to The Divine.
No matter what you are doing, you are expressing some aspect of God.
God can be found at Bronnikov Method or at Christmas or in Deafness. God is found at the bottom of the bottle or a bag of chips. God is in the junkies arm. God is in the raw food, the baby crying, your drunk Uncle, my spotted past, your bright future, and Now. I found God in a hoola hoop, healthy food habits, my journal, sunsets and redwoods. God is in the pain. My grandma believes it's only Jesus. Atheists are absent of belief. God is in the roses and it's thorns. I realized my skeptical nature was stemming from this knowledge; we are all doing our best with where we are, and there is no wrong choice. I recognized that my path and the choices I am making are simply mine. Not right or wrong. They are perfect, yet everyone's path is perfect, as it is an expression of God.
As I found myself in this place free of judgment, concern, possession, lack, intention, desire or separateness, I floated peacefully in The Void. The Void that has no split or chasm. The Void that is only There. The Void that simply Is. Emptiness is the first condition of a Miracle. One must be empty in order to be available to receive the Flow of Pure Source. I am here to simply be. In being, I Am. In being empty, I Am One with The Void that transcends duality. In my being, my thoughtlessness, I merge into that which Created itself...created Me...creates the Now.
Thank you, to the deliverer of this gift! It shines so sparkly inside my heart. I love that I am the giver, the receiver, the wrapping, the package, the gift itself and the observer watching as it all Unfolds.
On Christmas Eve, I gave as many of my gifts as I could. There were no physical gifts to exchange on the Silent Night and Day of Light. In silence, total blissed out silence, I cooked in the kitchen for hours, experimenting like a scientist with tastes and flavors, making vegan mashed potatoes for a gathering of 60 people today. I only paused to write bits and pieces of this blog. I made spicy Holiday Juice and nourished my body. I even attempted to use the veggie fibers from the juicer to make a veggie quiche crust. Why not? :) It tastes terrible but it was fun. I realized I have so many gifts to give in this world! It starts inside my heart; in gratitude for That Which I Am; that which Jesus the Christ carried inside of him. "The Kingdom of Heaven in within you", he said.
As I embrace my inner voice and listen with my inner ear, I can feel some sort of relief physically. The external world is still muffled. It still takes a lot of effort to listen, and I am grateful. I let the external sounds and sights fall away as I am enveloped in the pure White Light of Christ Consciousness! It is a gift to have such realizations and shifting on such a profound level.
I honor you, your radiance, your light, your gifts, your giving, your receiving, your fullness, your emptiness, your path, your doubt, your love, your skeptical nature, your seeking and your discoveries. I am blessed to simply be. Take a moment to embrace your inner silence, where all is calm, and the birth of the New Sun is at hand. Peace and Earth and Goodwill towards all!
Happy ChristmaHannakKwanzaYule!
I am being serious. It really is a gift. Follow my words as I unwrap it slowly, as my my syllables curve like candy canes, telling a story and that is deeper that your stocking, and fuller than your face. I hope you are enjoying your gluten-free cookies and organic local apple cider, hot and spiced inside of your mug. I hope your dinners are delicious and your communion with Tribe is Divine.
I went to the doctor yesterday after six days of hearing loss in my right ear, experiencing a constant high pitched frequency, and no results from multiple 'alternative' attempts at alleviating the muffled hearing and slight pressure. As an obvious advocate for natural health, I was resistant, humbled, skeptical and, to be honest, scared to go to 'The Doctor'. However, It was now or never, as it was Christmas Eve, and places were closing up. It's my ear. I only have two. It's my hearing. An actual sense. I only have six ;) Not a casual commodity. As I value my health and sharp hearing, I couldn't wait any longer. I needed someone to look inside with a microscope and take away the mystery. I felt my gut sink as the doc told me the news. The one fear I had was confirmed.
Ruptured ear drum. A tear in the tympanic membrane.
I intuitively feel that the physical cause of this lies somewhere between the intensity of the energy of the workshop and a high decibel sound burst from my ear bud during a intense hoop sesh. The metaphysical causality is layered in a more dynamic fashion. Ah, now the wrapping paper is off. Ribbons and paper ripped off. Nothing to hide! Let's open the box.
It happened on Saturday afternoon. I was in the thick of the Bronnikov workshop and needed to ground myself during a lunch break with some authentic hoop dance. I put in my ear buds and listened to some conscious skull candy (music), all the while moving and grooving to the delicious beats. I had been feeling some pressure in my head earlier in the day, a common occurrence with such Shen (Spirit) oriented energy work. I danced hard for a solid hour. I turned down the volume when a clashy punk song came on. I literally had the thought 'Wow, that really hurts my ears'. I took out my earphones shortly after and had the feeling the my right ear needed to pop. It wouldn't. My head felt clogged. I couldn't hear clearly out of my ear, as everything sounded muffled. My Qi family assisted with a bit of energetic love, but no avail. The day progressed and the pain got worse. My ear felt hot. Jaw aching. My right tonsil was pulsating. It hurt so bad I actually cried. I cried and had the memory of being an infant in my crib, my ear throbbing and I am screaming and no one comes. This remembrance made me cry harder. I sobbed for a solid three minutes and felt better. The pain was even down a degree. I am grateful for this release.
I did my best with warm homeopathic oils, mucous digesting enzymes, raw garlic (eating it and via drops), ear candling (twice), energetic alignment of lymph flow, mitake mushroom immune support, grapefruit seed extract, juicing, being void of dairy and ear wax dissolving drops; all the while thinking it was an ear infection. At least my immune system is kickin'! That's a fun stocking stuffer :)
Resistance leads to breakthrough. The skeptic in me arose big time while I was attempting to heal my ear. I was skeptical of the Bronnikov Method, thinking it had something to do with my ear hurting. I became skeptical of alternative healing techniques, as I was doing 'everything right' and nothing was working. I became skeptical of the way I was living my life, wondering why this 'happened to me', the 'super-positive girl'. The words of the Buddha ringing in my ear (literally) 'Doubt everything. Find your own light." I have been in a place of doubt and confusion as my body felt foreign and I was without an answer. I was in fear and placing external causality. Yet, the issue lies within. Literally, inside my head. I had to consult my heart to get to the root of the matter.
During the last seven days I have been contemplating the 'purpose' for this hearing loss. What am I not hearing? Am I really listening? Listening is more important than talking. My voice is so loud inside of my own head right now that talking doesn't seem as appealing, and listening requires extra effort and clarity of communication in every moment. As my physical hearing sense was depleted, my inner voice became louder. There is clarity within the muffled sounds. The message as clear as a Silver Bell, ringing in the crisp cool air. I have become more aware of the Truth within me, the truth within us all: We Are God.
Wow, now that's a package. Merry Christmas to me! I love that this is my realization during 'Christmas Time'. This is a time where traditionally Christians celebrate the birth of Jesus, The Son of Man. Emmanuel. Yeshua. The Christ. The Savior and Redeemer. Today, I celebrate unwrapping the gift and knowing that this Christ Consciousness is inside of me, as still as the Star in East, as sure as the Rising Son, as powerful as the miracles of the man himself. 'Greater works than these you will do', he said. I honor this, and step forward in this service.
Wait! I see more in this gift. It is like the little Russian dolls. You open one, and smaller one lies inside.
I realized I had not taken the time to just be still and be silent. I finally did this. I lit a fire and sat down and listened to the high pitched sound inside my ear. I accepted that a tiny hole existed in my ear drum. I honored my hearing, my loss of hearing, and the skepticism I have been experiencing. All of the conversations I have been having with others about God Consciousness started swirling in my head. All of the workshop material I have learned on various topics over the last 5 years began appearing. All sorts of diverse people, places, and images of worship came into my consciousness. As I realized we are smack in the middle of the time of year where all sorts of people honor God in all sorts of ways, another message became clear.
Every Path is a Path to The Divine.
No matter what you are doing, you are expressing some aspect of God.
God can be found at Bronnikov Method or at Christmas or in Deafness. God is found at the bottom of the bottle or a bag of chips. God is in the junkies arm. God is in the raw food, the baby crying, your drunk Uncle, my spotted past, your bright future, and Now. I found God in a hoola hoop, healthy food habits, my journal, sunsets and redwoods. God is in the pain. My grandma believes it's only Jesus. Atheists are absent of belief. God is in the roses and it's thorns. I realized my skeptical nature was stemming from this knowledge; we are all doing our best with where we are, and there is no wrong choice. I recognized that my path and the choices I am making are simply mine. Not right or wrong. They are perfect, yet everyone's path is perfect, as it is an expression of God.
As I found myself in this place free of judgment, concern, possession, lack, intention, desire or separateness, I floated peacefully in The Void. The Void that has no split or chasm. The Void that is only There. The Void that simply Is. Emptiness is the first condition of a Miracle. One must be empty in order to be available to receive the Flow of Pure Source. I am here to simply be. In being, I Am. In being empty, I Am One with The Void that transcends duality. In my being, my thoughtlessness, I merge into that which Created itself...created Me...creates the Now.
Thank you, to the deliverer of this gift! It shines so sparkly inside my heart. I love that I am the giver, the receiver, the wrapping, the package, the gift itself and the observer watching as it all Unfolds.
On Christmas Eve, I gave as many of my gifts as I could. There were no physical gifts to exchange on the Silent Night and Day of Light. In silence, total blissed out silence, I cooked in the kitchen for hours, experimenting like a scientist with tastes and flavors, making vegan mashed potatoes for a gathering of 60 people today. I only paused to write bits and pieces of this blog. I made spicy Holiday Juice and nourished my body. I even attempted to use the veggie fibers from the juicer to make a veggie quiche crust. Why not? :) It tastes terrible but it was fun. I realized I have so many gifts to give in this world! It starts inside my heart; in gratitude for That Which I Am; that which Jesus the Christ carried inside of him. "The Kingdom of Heaven in within you", he said.
As I embrace my inner voice and listen with my inner ear, I can feel some sort of relief physically. The external world is still muffled. It still takes a lot of effort to listen, and I am grateful. I let the external sounds and sights fall away as I am enveloped in the pure White Light of Christ Consciousness! It is a gift to have such realizations and shifting on such a profound level.
I honor you, your radiance, your light, your gifts, your giving, your receiving, your fullness, your emptiness, your path, your doubt, your love, your skeptical nature, your seeking and your discoveries. I am blessed to simply be. Take a moment to embrace your inner silence, where all is calm, and the birth of the New Sun is at hand. Peace and Earth and Goodwill towards all!
Happy ChristmaHannakKwanzaYule!
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Empty Moon, Full Force
Today the moon is New. This means there is no sign of the moon in the sky. The night will be void of the white sphere. No silver sliver. Empty, black and dark. This is THE TIME to express intention and desire to the Universe! I have been on quite an amazing journey over the past few months (I still AM on this adventure, as it never ending). During this transformational period in my life, I have made a conscious effort to manifest in time with the moon; utilizing her powerful phases. This has been incredibly effective and helped me to maintain a sense of purpose, path and passion for all I am creating. Today, on the New Moon, I will publicly state my intentions. Perhaps this will add a bit of 'oomph', and my dreams will unfold effortlessly and with ease. And so it is!
It is important that we are specific in any requests put forth today. The Universe loves to assist us in our endeavors. Just as any good friend, it appreciates direction and translation of what it is we actually want. Possibilities are endless and limitless! So, what I put out here in cyberspace today is powerful and will certainly come to fruition. Here goes!
I have two main focal points in my life in this moment. Healing and Creativity. These themes are manifesting beautifully in my life through an abundance of opportunities in the areas of my healing work, hoop dance, Qigong and Heart Connections with my human family. I would like to open with GRATITUDE before beginning my poetic parade of requests. I am so grateful for all of the abundance, support and perfection that has been present in my life. I am immensely grateful for all of the people who have taken me into their homes, given me rides to airports, trusted me to give them therapeutic/healing massage, fed me, hugged me, offered kind words of encouragement and support and financially assisted me throughout this journey. I am eternally grateful to SOURCE for all of the reasons I cannot express through words. I am humble, honored and happy to simply exist in this world; everything happening in my world is a blessing and purposeful creation. I am thankful to myself for being so trusting in Source and in my ability to remain focused, aligned and true to my Path. I am especially thankful to my Mother (Dr. White) and Father (Rev. White) and grandmother (my Nonnie) for being my biggest inspirations and an infallible support system. It is because of these three beautiful people that I am able to continue on with this phenomenal adventure. I love you Mom, Dad & Nonnie! <3
Now that the most important part (the gratitude) is handled, on to the superfun process of manifestation!
First, MAUI!!! This is such a beautiful part of my creation right now. I am so grateful that I have the money to purchase a plane ticket, a reason to purchase the plane ticket, and somewhere beautiful to work and live once I get there. I ask for the resources to ship my car and belongings to the island. May I have a nest egg saved so that I can play and eat. May I come across the connections needed to turn this into reality! Thank you, Source! It is so! May I see and recognize the signs telling me when the appropriate time and place to depart the mainland may be. May I begin to make all of the connections needed to set up a large and diverse network on the islands, so that I may share my dance/movement/meditation, performance, healing hands, Qigong (QI GODDESS RETREATS, baby!), Food Healing, Breathing Practices and SMILE with all of Hawaii! May I bend time so that I have enough time/energy to be creative, practice hoop/qigong, work, build my business, write a book and experience Mother Maui FULLY and without limits!
I just finished up two MAJOR events (Level 2 Supreme Science Qigong Certification and HoopCamp) that I am certain have altered the course of my life forever. I flew to Miami from LA for a week at the end of September to continue my Qigong training. I completed my Level 2 Certification! It was intense and powerful. The training consisted of passing the Level 2 Form (which went exceptionally well. Jeff said my form was 'excellent' and that made me happy!) An important part of the training is learning to lead Nine Breath Prayer Circles. I took the initiative to be a leader in the student-led Nine Breath Circle. I was the first to go after Jeff started it off. I did my best to embody the archetypes of the Divine Feminine, Spiritual Leader, Warrior & Spiritual Warrior. My peers applauded my efforts! It was so special to be seen, heard and recognized by such a talented, devoted and connected group of people. It felt good to allow the Flow to come through me and be expressed through my voice. This is new for me and not as easy as other expressive outlets I have explored. This leads me to my second request on this night of No Moon. I ask the Universe to assist me in connecting my Heart to my Voice. May my words be impeccable and heart-centered at all times. May I be presented with opportunities to teach the Nine Breathe Method & Breath Empowerment and to lead Nine Breath Circles. I ask for the will to study the scripts and practice the method daily, so that I am confidant in my ability to facilitate the most potent and powerful healing experience for all present. May my voice become an instrument for Spirit to reach the masses. May my words be clear, concise and carry a tone that is peaceful, present and pure. I also ask for this blessing for my written words. I ask for my words to be protected and projected. I ask that the Truth that flows through my written and spoken words to reach those who need it. May they resonate and understand the essence and use it to achieve the highest good in this moment!
This feels good :) Onward...
Level 2 Training kept getting better as we went through the training to become certified in Food Based Healing. This is something I am incredibly passionate about, as changing my diet changed my life. I know from personal experience the dramatic effect medicinal foods have on our bodies, minds and spiritual connection. It was a healthy challenge for me to stand in front of a small group of my peers and demo how to make a medicinal smoothie. Regurgitating all of the important information about the foods involved in the process while simultaneously prepping and blending, while maintaining authenticity is crazy hard! Props to Jeff and all of the others who have mastered this. So, this leads me to my third request too the Universe on this night of No Moon. I ask for Spirit to guide me to the right people and places to demonstrate this amazing technique that is so powerful in the reversal of so many ailments that the masses are burdened with in this day and age. I ask for the monetary energy to come swiftly and quickly so that I may purchase all of the tools necessary to create a powerful presentation (the 'Smoothie Formula' and 'Conquering Any Disease' books in wholesale quantity and at wholesale price; and a Blendtec Blender, as it is the most effective tool on the market for accessing the potent phytochemicals within natures food medicine). May my efforts to spread Food Based Healing world wide be blessed! I ask for the embodiment of The Entertainer archetype during my presentations, so that those who are watching and listening to me will feel comfortable, highly informed, and be entertained/fascinated by the process of creating medicinal smoothies, breakfasts, lunches, snacks, dinners and desserts. May my delivery be impeccable and well received so that participants will be enthusiastic about incorporating Food Based Healing into their everyday lives; thus changing the world for the better. May I stay present and on purpose as I deliver this vital and life-changing information to my brothers and sisters who are seeking an alternative to drugs and diets. I ask for my mind to be a sponge, as it retains all of the information needed to effectively answer in-depth questions audience members will certainly have. I ask that I only retain information that is true and of importance, and for discernment, so that I may recognize false information and let it fall away and out of my consciousness. May every area that I reside in have locations that are excited about having me host these presentations. It would be wonderful if they wanted to carry the corresponding literature and share information about The Healthy Hooper and Supreme Science Qigong! Ok, onto the next :)
Level 2 Training was full of business and marketing training as well. May my business sense be savvy and smart. I ask the Universe to help me make moves that are for the greater good and growth of my personal business, The Healthy Hooper, and for the greater good of Supreme Science, as we are All One. May I always TRUST that there is ENOUGH to go around! I ask for prosperity and abundance financially, spiritually and physically, so that I may assist others in their desire to be prosperous and abundant in all areas of life. I love what I do and I ask for my efforts to be blessed, so that I may do what I love for a living, encouraging others to do the same.
May all of the resources needed for me to fly to Miami (hoops in toe) to become Level 3 and Advanced Food Healing Certified become available to me NOW :)! I ask for this amazing momentum to continue. Thank you thank you THANK YOU!
Level 2 wouldn't have been nearly as awesome of an accomplishment if I had not been surrounded by such wonderful, fantastic and Divine company. I am grateful for the amazing people in my life. I continue to ask for all of the right people to come into my circle. I am open and vulnerable as I embrace each member of this human family as my brother, sister, mother, father and self. May my connections remain heart-centered and void of selfish gain. I am grateful to my Qi Family for helping me to expand my circle!
This leads into my phenomenal experience at HoopCamp 2010!
HoopCamp was such a rewarding and magical experience. I am so grateful for the opportunity to share my healing hands with my fellow artists of Flow. I spent four days in the middle of a Redwood Circle massaging one hoop dancer after another. It was OK with me that I wasn't present in the workshops or showing off my superdope hoop skills. I absorbed all of the information everyone learned through massaging their worn out, but strong, bodies. Everyone was so grateful, and happy to exchange their hard-earned money for the bodywork I was offering. May I be blessed with many more opportunities to share my gift of healing with the masses. May the leaders in the Hoop & Flow Community recognize my skills and gifts and ask me to be a part of their retreats in Peru, Bali, Hawaii, and any other amazing place where Flow Family gathers to learn, share, devote and grow. I ask to be given the opportunities to share my knowledge, healing, dance, Flow, voice, and wisdom with my Beloved Flow Family. May the Florida Flow Festival be a blessed endeavor! I ask that the material for my workshop be presented to me so that I may convey a presentation that is packed with purpose, presence and pertinent information for all attendees. May Spirit bless my creativity; keeping my movement fresh, edgy, raw, refined, explosive, healing and pure. May my body be a vessel for healing in every form. HoopCamp opened my eyes and humbled me to the ground. I realize I am a skilled and talented dancer, but I also know that there are many who have come before me that have opened The Way for this to be my Truth. May the Hoop & Flow community be blessed in our devotion to Source as we spin into New Thought, a New Earth and a New Way of Being!
My body is tingling as I type these words. I can feel the essence of the Moon and her empty womb. The depth of the emptiness is vast and infinite. There is enough space in the womb of The Eternal for all of our dreams to manifest in this moment. I am certain that my prayers have been heard and are being percolated to perfection! Now, all I have to do is celebrate. I will do so with dance, chant and purposeful action. I encourage each of you to use this day to co-create with Spirit anything and everything you desire in your life. You are worth it! The time is NOW. YOU ARE THE ONE you have been waiting for. Fall into the abyss and allow the darkness of the night to be a canvas as you paint the vivid images of your life into reality. I am here with you now, showing you it is possible. I love each of you and I am grateful for the ways which you reflect the Divine back to me. I am learning and growing each day. Thank for you for doing the same.
May all of our prayers be blessed and held in the intention of the highest good for all of humanity, the planet, and the Universe as a whole. May we be accepting and understanding of Divine Timing and Plan. May we all exist HERE and NOW in optimal health and happiness as we evolve and expand into the limitless beings that we are! May we always return thanks to the True Source, Creator of All. Thank you, Source! Namaste <3
www.thehealthyhooper.com (Hand-Made Hoops, Event/Retreat Booking)
www.qigong.com (info on Qigong and Supreme Science)
www.blendtec.com (the only blender you'll ever need)
www.food-healing.com (resource for medicinal foods that are sometimes hard to find locally)
It is important that we are specific in any requests put forth today. The Universe loves to assist us in our endeavors. Just as any good friend, it appreciates direction and translation of what it is we actually want. Possibilities are endless and limitless! So, what I put out here in cyberspace today is powerful and will certainly come to fruition. Here goes!
I have two main focal points in my life in this moment. Healing and Creativity. These themes are manifesting beautifully in my life through an abundance of opportunities in the areas of my healing work, hoop dance, Qigong and Heart Connections with my human family. I would like to open with GRATITUDE before beginning my poetic parade of requests. I am so grateful for all of the abundance, support and perfection that has been present in my life. I am immensely grateful for all of the people who have taken me into their homes, given me rides to airports, trusted me to give them therapeutic/healing massage, fed me, hugged me, offered kind words of encouragement and support and financially assisted me throughout this journey. I am eternally grateful to SOURCE for all of the reasons I cannot express through words. I am humble, honored and happy to simply exist in this world; everything happening in my world is a blessing and purposeful creation. I am thankful to myself for being so trusting in Source and in my ability to remain focused, aligned and true to my Path. I am especially thankful to my Mother (Dr. White) and Father (Rev. White) and grandmother (my Nonnie) for being my biggest inspirations and an infallible support system. It is because of these three beautiful people that I am able to continue on with this phenomenal adventure. I love you Mom, Dad & Nonnie! <3
Now that the most important part (the gratitude) is handled, on to the superfun process of manifestation!
First, MAUI!!! This is such a beautiful part of my creation right now. I am so grateful that I have the money to purchase a plane ticket, a reason to purchase the plane ticket, and somewhere beautiful to work and live once I get there. I ask for the resources to ship my car and belongings to the island. May I have a nest egg saved so that I can play and eat. May I come across the connections needed to turn this into reality! Thank you, Source! It is so! May I see and recognize the signs telling me when the appropriate time and place to depart the mainland may be. May I begin to make all of the connections needed to set up a large and diverse network on the islands, so that I may share my dance/movement/meditation, performance, healing hands, Qigong (QI GODDESS RETREATS, baby!), Food Healing, Breathing Practices and SMILE with all of Hawaii! May I bend time so that I have enough time/energy to be creative, practice hoop/qigong, work, build my business, write a book and experience Mother Maui FULLY and without limits!
I just finished up two MAJOR events (Level 2 Supreme Science Qigong Certification and HoopCamp) that I am certain have altered the course of my life forever. I flew to Miami from LA for a week at the end of September to continue my Qigong training. I completed my Level 2 Certification! It was intense and powerful. The training consisted of passing the Level 2 Form (which went exceptionally well. Jeff said my form was 'excellent' and that made me happy!) An important part of the training is learning to lead Nine Breath Prayer Circles. I took the initiative to be a leader in the student-led Nine Breath Circle. I was the first to go after Jeff started it off. I did my best to embody the archetypes of the Divine Feminine, Spiritual Leader, Warrior & Spiritual Warrior. My peers applauded my efforts! It was so special to be seen, heard and recognized by such a talented, devoted and connected group of people. It felt good to allow the Flow to come through me and be expressed through my voice. This is new for me and not as easy as other expressive outlets I have explored. This leads me to my second request on this night of No Moon. I ask the Universe to assist me in connecting my Heart to my Voice. May my words be impeccable and heart-centered at all times. May I be presented with opportunities to teach the Nine Breathe Method & Breath Empowerment and to lead Nine Breath Circles. I ask for the will to study the scripts and practice the method daily, so that I am confidant in my ability to facilitate the most potent and powerful healing experience for all present. May my voice become an instrument for Spirit to reach the masses. May my words be clear, concise and carry a tone that is peaceful, present and pure. I also ask for this blessing for my written words. I ask for my words to be protected and projected. I ask that the Truth that flows through my written and spoken words to reach those who need it. May they resonate and understand the essence and use it to achieve the highest good in this moment!
This feels good :) Onward...
Level 2 Training kept getting better as we went through the training to become certified in Food Based Healing. This is something I am incredibly passionate about, as changing my diet changed my life. I know from personal experience the dramatic effect medicinal foods have on our bodies, minds and spiritual connection. It was a healthy challenge for me to stand in front of a small group of my peers and demo how to make a medicinal smoothie. Regurgitating all of the important information about the foods involved in the process while simultaneously prepping and blending, while maintaining authenticity is crazy hard! Props to Jeff and all of the others who have mastered this. So, this leads me to my third request too the Universe on this night of No Moon. I ask for Spirit to guide me to the right people and places to demonstrate this amazing technique that is so powerful in the reversal of so many ailments that the masses are burdened with in this day and age. I ask for the monetary energy to come swiftly and quickly so that I may purchase all of the tools necessary to create a powerful presentation (the 'Smoothie Formula' and 'Conquering Any Disease' books in wholesale quantity and at wholesale price; and a Blendtec Blender, as it is the most effective tool on the market for accessing the potent phytochemicals within natures food medicine). May my efforts to spread Food Based Healing world wide be blessed! I ask for the embodiment of The Entertainer archetype during my presentations, so that those who are watching and listening to me will feel comfortable, highly informed, and be entertained/fascinated by the process of creating medicinal smoothies, breakfasts, lunches, snacks, dinners and desserts. May my delivery be impeccable and well received so that participants will be enthusiastic about incorporating Food Based Healing into their everyday lives; thus changing the world for the better. May I stay present and on purpose as I deliver this vital and life-changing information to my brothers and sisters who are seeking an alternative to drugs and diets. I ask for my mind to be a sponge, as it retains all of the information needed to effectively answer in-depth questions audience members will certainly have. I ask that I only retain information that is true and of importance, and for discernment, so that I may recognize false information and let it fall away and out of my consciousness. May every area that I reside in have locations that are excited about having me host these presentations. It would be wonderful if they wanted to carry the corresponding literature and share information about The Healthy Hooper and Supreme Science Qigong! Ok, onto the next :)
Level 2 Training was full of business and marketing training as well. May my business sense be savvy and smart. I ask the Universe to help me make moves that are for the greater good and growth of my personal business, The Healthy Hooper, and for the greater good of Supreme Science, as we are All One. May I always TRUST that there is ENOUGH to go around! I ask for prosperity and abundance financially, spiritually and physically, so that I may assist others in their desire to be prosperous and abundant in all areas of life. I love what I do and I ask for my efforts to be blessed, so that I may do what I love for a living, encouraging others to do the same.
May all of the resources needed for me to fly to Miami (hoops in toe) to become Level 3 and Advanced Food Healing Certified become available to me NOW :)! I ask for this amazing momentum to continue. Thank you thank you THANK YOU!
Level 2 wouldn't have been nearly as awesome of an accomplishment if I had not been surrounded by such wonderful, fantastic and Divine company. I am grateful for the amazing people in my life. I continue to ask for all of the right people to come into my circle. I am open and vulnerable as I embrace each member of this human family as my brother, sister, mother, father and self. May my connections remain heart-centered and void of selfish gain. I am grateful to my Qi Family for helping me to expand my circle!
This leads into my phenomenal experience at HoopCamp 2010!
HoopCamp was such a rewarding and magical experience. I am so grateful for the opportunity to share my healing hands with my fellow artists of Flow. I spent four days in the middle of a Redwood Circle massaging one hoop dancer after another. It was OK with me that I wasn't present in the workshops or showing off my superdope hoop skills. I absorbed all of the information everyone learned through massaging their worn out, but strong, bodies. Everyone was so grateful, and happy to exchange their hard-earned money for the bodywork I was offering. May I be blessed with many more opportunities to share my gift of healing with the masses. May the leaders in the Hoop & Flow Community recognize my skills and gifts and ask me to be a part of their retreats in Peru, Bali, Hawaii, and any other amazing place where Flow Family gathers to learn, share, devote and grow. I ask to be given the opportunities to share my knowledge, healing, dance, Flow, voice, and wisdom with my Beloved Flow Family. May the Florida Flow Festival be a blessed endeavor! I ask that the material for my workshop be presented to me so that I may convey a presentation that is packed with purpose, presence and pertinent information for all attendees. May Spirit bless my creativity; keeping my movement fresh, edgy, raw, refined, explosive, healing and pure. May my body be a vessel for healing in every form. HoopCamp opened my eyes and humbled me to the ground. I realize I am a skilled and talented dancer, but I also know that there are many who have come before me that have opened The Way for this to be my Truth. May the Hoop & Flow community be blessed in our devotion to Source as we spin into New Thought, a New Earth and a New Way of Being!
My body is tingling as I type these words. I can feel the essence of the Moon and her empty womb. The depth of the emptiness is vast and infinite. There is enough space in the womb of The Eternal for all of our dreams to manifest in this moment. I am certain that my prayers have been heard and are being percolated to perfection! Now, all I have to do is celebrate. I will do so with dance, chant and purposeful action. I encourage each of you to use this day to co-create with Spirit anything and everything you desire in your life. You are worth it! The time is NOW. YOU ARE THE ONE you have been waiting for. Fall into the abyss and allow the darkness of the night to be a canvas as you paint the vivid images of your life into reality. I am here with you now, showing you it is possible. I love each of you and I am grateful for the ways which you reflect the Divine back to me. I am learning and growing each day. Thank for you for doing the same.
May all of our prayers be blessed and held in the intention of the highest good for all of humanity, the planet, and the Universe as a whole. May we be accepting and understanding of Divine Timing and Plan. May we all exist HERE and NOW in optimal health and happiness as we evolve and expand into the limitless beings that we are! May we always return thanks to the True Source, Creator of All. Thank you, Source! Namaste <3
www.thehealthyhooper.com (Hand-Made Hoops, Event/Retreat Booking)
www.qigong.com (info on Qigong and Supreme Science)
www.blendtec.com (the only blender you'll ever need)
www.food-healing.com (resource for medicinal foods that are sometimes hard to find locally)
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