I wanted to write something before I snuggled my head into the pillow last night. What, though? While looking through the archives, I found a draft of a blog I started writing January 9, 2008. It was entitled The Blah Blah Blog. Below is the draft I found. I realized I wrote this before I found hooping (or the hoop found me, rather.) This blog I never posted now seems more like a prayer...an answered prayer at that.
"...I don't feel 100% today. My nose is all runny and my head feels like it is filled with nothing but snot. Attractive. At first, I blamed the fact that I turned on my heat. 'It burned up a lot of dust, and now my allergies are bothering me', I lie to my clients. I have been creatively stagnant. That is the truth of the matter. My immune system and my creativity go hand in hand. When I take the time to move my body creatively, write something from my heart, or play with splashes of color it is the equivalent of 10,000 milligrams of vitamin C and a heavy dose of zinc. I haven't written a blog in a while. I haven't written at all in while. Well, here I am!
Snot, be gone.
This blog will be short, sweet, and to the point. I need creativity! Creativity needs me. Through my creative essence I feel intertwined with the very Source that gives me breath, a beating heart, and my uniqueness. Dance, lately, has been the appealing form of creation for me. I have found that no matter where I am or what I am doing, if there is some form of music playing my body, almost uncontrollably, starts to sync with the rhythm. I think I will enroll in ballet. I think it will be good for me to focus on technique, discipline, and form. Yoga and dance. They just seem to fit together. I have been doing Bikram yoga. It is INTENSE! I love it..."
End draft.
There are some very interesting synchronizations upon finding this blog, especially today. Firstly, one of the reasons I was in such a mood to write tonight was because I just did 90 minutes of Hot Yoga, which is a variation of Bikram. Bikram Yoga is a 90 minute structured series of 26 postures and breathing techniques, done in a room heated to 105 degrees. That's right, you sweat that shit out. Fo' real. This gift has changed my life. I am glad I am still doing this for myself. Good Job, Shellie! Kudos for the Self-Love.
I think it is very strange to read the abandoned entry above now that I have been hooping for over 19 months. To read about and remember a time in my life where I had no hoop, no hoop making, no hoop sisters, no hooping lover, no hoop dreams, no hoop tricks, no hoop mentors, no Hoola Monsters, no hoop anything, seems so surreal. What did I have? What was I doing? Oh wait! I had/have something of infinite value. I listed it there in that blog. I had the dance. Duh! I had the dance part of Hoop Dance pumping through my veins. Reading those words makes me so grateful that I embraced myself as the dancer I am even without the hoop. I must remember that if all of the hoops in the world were to vanish mysteriously I would still be a dancer. I am not confined to my hoop (just madly in love with the perfect and sacred shape!) The fact that I even realized my creative dance potential and decided to write it down via a blog draft I never even posted is an honorable act. I saw it. I recognized it within myself. I felt it in the very rhythm of my heartbeat. I called to the Dance. It answered six months later in the form of a flaming magical ring on the Summer Solstice. Ask and you shall receive...
I did have a life before the hoop. From the factual information found in this blog draft, it was a reality speckled with creative bursts, but nothing substantial. Hence the illness. I am proud of myself for acknowledging this. Most people would get a sinus infection and label it just that. A sinus infection. Most wouldn't relate an ailment to creative stagnancy. I am so glad I did! In my awareness I found ultimate reward. In my search for something to cure my 'dis-ease' I found not only a hoop, but a cure for boredom & creative lull. The hoop is a tool for enlightenment, empowerment, and ascension. By creating we acknowledge our divinity. In creative movement we not only acknowledge our divinity, we prepare our body temples for Spirit to enter and move through us. With the addition of the circle, and its spirals and sacred geometrical shapes being formed all around the dancer, a conscious evolution is imminent. I intend to spread this healing to as many people as possible. I am so glad I stumbled across this old, forgotten blog. This is inspiring me to really make my move and get the juices flowing with all of my creative endeavors. On large and subtle levels my creative efforts have changed the world, and will continue to as along as I am still creating. Creation is life. It is power. It is Love. It is devotion. It is magic. It is all we have. Go create yourself! Do it right now with whatever thought is in your head. Create a thought that is perfectly aligned with the Divine Purpose you carry on this planet. It's a really fun game! Here is an example.
"I am so stoked about Studio Flow, and all of my upcoming opportunities. I am feeling so blessed that I am being given the chance to use my creative musings to create happiness, sacred space, and communal creation. I am so grateful that I have so many people wanting to help and contribute. I feel supported, free, loved, and fearless. I am grateful for it all."
I love creating positive affirmations. It is a sure-fire way to break the super bad habit of "stinkin' thinkin'".
It has been two years since I wrote the original Blah Blah Blog. Two years and everything has changed a million times. Countless circles have been made. I see now. I've been spinning circles my whole existence. It was simply time for me to have the physical shape in hand. To take action. To DO something with my dreams. I am so grateful for my hoops. I am so grateful for my dance, and for my yoga. I am grateful I chose to be a dancer. A conscious dancer at that. I Honor The Source from which The Dance is delivered. Most of all, I am grateful to The Directer (for the sake of witty wording in regards to The Shellie Show, I refer to Source as The Director) for giving me such infinite creative license with this beautifully choreographed routine I call life. The 'Show' part of 'The Shellie Show' is about to break through to a monumental level. Ain't nothin' Blah Blah about it! Tune in, tune up, and turn on as we walk this amazing journey together. Honor, Love, Respect, and DANCE! :)
