Where to begin? At the end, of course. A circle is constant in this way...
An entire eternity has come and gone in the last 365 days. Today marks one year that I landed on Maui. Today is my Maui Anniversary! :)
I arrived here on 1/11/11 (an auspicious date, indeed.) I arrived after having spent five months in the sweet (yet very wet and cold) surf-side city of Santa Cruz. It was a true blessing to be nurtured by the rooted redwoods before tossing myself into the chaotic realms of the Maui and her mysteries. So, 2011 began for me with a BANG! Aloha, Maui :) I was welcomed with love and grace, having support from friends who I connected with mainland who were now living on Maui. Noah picked me up from the airport, and Heidi hooked me up with a sweet landing pad in her spot in Haiku. It was so amazing to wake up to her making smoothies topped with local bee pollen (it was purple!) and an amazing sunrise outside the window. Within three days I found an E350 Ford Van that I converted into my home on wheels. I found it for $1000 on craigslist. God loves me! The adventure had begun.
My beautiful friend Forest came to visit me in Maui from Santa Cruz. We had formed a very special friendship based on love and sharing, so we shared just that...friendly love and space in my little van for exactly 22 days. We cruised all over the island. We went to Mystic Island Party where I had the pleasure of performing with live electronic/loop artist David Starfire! Mystic Island is such a beautiful gathering. Totally tribal. It occurs in a beautiful setting right on the ocean where you could look out at almost any time and see turtles, dolphins or whales. EPIC music, yoga classes, emotional freedom technique classes, non-violent communication courses, SO many other classes and organic delicious food, all in one place! I met so many amazing souls and felt like I really grounded into the roots community that is Maui. I am so excited about Mystic Island Festival 2012 happening Jan. 26th-30th! I am performing with DJ Starfire again, as well as Jaya Lakshmi & Ananda (who are my favorite Kirtan couple :) I love the way my creative life is continually coming full circle...
Forest and I continued on our journey, floating from the hippie hotspots of Paia, and Makawao, to the waterfalls, sacred pools, jungles and bamboo forests of Hana, all the way to the sunny side for Sunday Drum Circles on Little Beach.
A side-stroy on Little Beach: I'll never forget when I was fire-hooping somewhere in Florida when a stranger said in passing "Little Beach would love you!" "Where is Little Beach?" I wondered. I found out. MAUI. That was one of the main 'omens' that ended up guiding me directly two this other-worldly-wonder. The first time I fire-hooped on Little I received the loudest applause from the most loving, cheering, screaming, enthusiastic audience I had ever witnessed! I cried. I haven't missed a Sunday since (other than when I was on the mainland). I love Little Beach. It has been such an accepting and opportunity offering space in my creative world. I am grateful for this rare gem! Where else is there a beautiful, clothing optional beach with a panoramic view of paradise, complete with whales jumping and hippie's jamming? <3
Only on Maui...
So, back to the timeline. Forest and I had a blast doing acro-yoga and hooping (he wanted to learn and now-a-days he better than ME!:) All through the sunny days and starry nights, we played and laughed. I really appreciated Forest's company and I am grateful for all of the lessons and joy we shared in. I feel like Forest actually carries the redwoods in his soul. It was such a blessing to spend that special time with one of my most special friends!
My entry to Maui was so beautiful, easy and graceful. It paved the way for much love and abundance to occur in my life, and the lives of those around me. I have developed massage clientele on the island, and also sold about fifty hoops that I made and flew over from California when I arrived last year. I felt so good, so at ease, and very much on purpose. Since then, I have purchased some hoop materials and will have hoops available for sale this month at Mystic Island. My massage clientele keeps growing and I have some folks who are learning from me. My life is blessed :)
I am excited to be able to live my dreams of creative sustainably!
After Forest left I enjoyed some time solo on the island activating the hoop scene. I performed as often as I could everywhere I could. Art openings, farmers markets, parties, festivals, etc. I went to this one amazing festival based solely on raw, live, vegan food called Bliss Camp (also known as Raw Spirit Festival) put on by an amazing sprite named Happy Oasis. This was a very intimate gathering of lovely folks who were all on the same page with healthy food and healthy vibes. All of the food was created by hand from freshly foraged fruits, coconuts, avocados, flowers and Maui grown veggies. It was so inspiring! I was stoked to be work trading for a portion of my ticket. I helped in the kitchen every day and was feeling blessed to work beside such awesome raw food chefs. I formed a super-sister bond with one of Kitchen Goddess named Noa. We were creating something delicious that required lots of pineapple coring, so her and I became intertwined over binging on pineapple core until our mouths went numb. Good times :)
I performed and taught hoop classes every day at Raw Spirit! It was a climactic moment for me this past Winter Season. At that same festival, I met a man named Matisha who is known in the aquatic realms Dolphinanda. He takes tourists out to swim with sea creatures. What fun! He blows bubble rings while laying on the bottom of the ocean for dolphins to swim through and play with. We met and he saw me hoop dancing, and decided it would be cool to film me underwater hooping with bubble rings! We made the effort and when the festival was done, swam out quite a ways on Little Beach. He dove down deep and would blow the bubble rings and I would do my best to swim through them. It was fun and I felt very mermaid-ish and dolphin like. The most amazing part of this whole experience was hearing a pod of 60 or so humpback whales that were close by but not visible. Hearing the whales was one of the most epic experiences I've ever had. I could tell the difference between male, female and child. Their voices were enchanting, haunting, and omniscient. It was like listening to everything that this universe has ever known and will ever know. The record of all things is sung within the song of the whales. It is The Akashic Record (God’s Big Book) as a song for our auditory enjoyment and enlightenment. It was profound to say the least. The whale song changed my life. I feel blessed….so grateful and blessed! Thank you, Maui, Matisha and whales :)
After Bliss Camp I enjoyed time to myself hooping on the beach and being a social butterfly around the island. Hoop jams, coffee shops, parties, potlucks and new friends occupied my days and nights. February was upon us, and it was time for SOURCE.
Source is the regional Burning Man on the island of Maui. I knew about SOURCE before hand from my dear sister, Susanna SeaFire. We met years ago in West Virginia, actually. I was stoked she was from Maui, as that was my destination. So, when I finally got to Maui and had time to play with Susanna, we decided to choreograph a fire duet together to perform at SOURCE. It was such a wonderfully fun experience, full of learning, love, depth, and pure passion. I really enjoyed preparing our piece. When it was time to perform at SOURCE, I was in bliss seeing so many beautiful faces around me, and couldn't wait to show my festival family what we had worked on. Susanna and I connected really well and the show went perfectly as planned. I felt very accomplished creatively after this performance, and even more deeply connected to the Art of Performance. I met so many amazing fire-performers and prop builders. There is an AMAZING fire troupe here known as Merkaba Fire. I am looking forward to performing with these amazing people sometime in the near future.
The performance was one beautiful aspect of SOURCE. But not the one that stood out the most. The real experience for me at SOURCE was one that would shape the rest of my festival, my stay on Maui, the rest of my 2011, as well as the rest of my life as I have known it thus far. On February 18, a Full Moon I met a man who's name, at the time, was Wolf...
I would never be the same.
This story is about to get really, really good/intense/passionate/scary/tear-jerking/entertaining/jaw-dropping and informational! Stay tuned...
To be continued....
ALOHA NUI LOA & MAHALO for being the amazing human beings that you are. I honor you and respect you. Thank you for reading about my life! May this story plant seeds of inspiration deep within your soul and may the waters of life nourish all of these dream seeds with love and grace :)
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
A New Dimension
A New Vibration! Heightened sensations! Seeing in shapes, colors, light and sound! This is the Era of New Humanity. I Am, as I see it, the Micro Cosmic Consciousness of the Macro Cosmic Infinite Intelligent Living Universal Mind!
Yes, this is quite the claim. Some may even think of it as an exaggeration or embellishment. Perhaps, even, a lie. The One who says he loves me more than anyone else has gone as far to call me 'crazy'. Let me be crazy then, for I know the truth, it is written in my DNA, embedded in every cell of my being, and resonates within me as a heartbeat and breath. If you believe you are anything less than the God that Created you, you have been successfully brainwashed. I have seen the truth many times on this Earthy and Heavenly realm, yet it seems to fade in it's vibrancy, or at times I can not recall what occurred in such a breath, heat, medicinal or prayer/meditation induced state. On Tuesday August 4th in the year of 2011, I witnessed Life/Love from the perspective of The White Circle, The Void, The Place with No Duality, The Space Between, and the Mind That Created All, and remember and still feel it within me vividly. I felt strongly called to share with all. I am still coming back into this body after being fractal-ed out into Infinity...and beyond. Infinity itself is hard to grasp...can you imagine beyond the Infinite?
I closed my eyes to meditate on Global Healing along with 300 others on Tuesday. It was the fourth day of Qi Revolution Los Angelos. Enlightenment in LA? Pshhh...tough chance. Well, let's re-frame this. It IS the City of Angels! After this experience, I am sure it truly is. The following is the recipe which brought me to the following sequence of vibrant visual images of truth.
The Recipe for Realization.
I partook of a tincture in a tiny blue bottle with a Winged Heart on one side and the Sacred Owl adorning the other. These are two POWERFUL symbols in my life and I felt called to take in these essences. The tincture was crafted with organic sativa, reishi mushrooms, yerba mate, and blended with other immune supporting, brain-healthy Chinese Herbs. In ceremonial style with other light beings of like mind/heart (prayers, blessings, thanks, and reverence for the herb and it's grower, and of course Earth Momma for providing), we partook together, hands in a group spiral. After this beautiful sharing, I gathered my sacred tools and built a little alter underneath the chair I chose. The alter is the next part of the recipe. The alter included:
-Antique Brass Owl (to see as if it were light even if it is dark)
-A Piece of Sacred Vine from Maui (heart opening)
-Fossilized Whale Ear (to listen to all information presented in the Now)
-One Circle (my third Ring. Gifted to me upon my 3rd hoop anniversary)
-Quartz (for Clarity)
-Smoky Quartz (to heal the nations)
-Photo of Yeshua (always in recognition, presence and protection of the Christ Consciousness)
-Mantra of the Violet Flame (I AM Violet Flame! To light ALONE I bow!)
-A few pairs of crystals representing union of Divine Feminine & Divine Masculine
-And the final, and most important, element it turns out:
An image of the Divine Mother Earth being held lovingly in the hands of the Divine Father, with the light grid patterns visable, a fiery phoenix in flight, a baby at the center of the earth with a plant seed sprouting from its belly and bursting out from the center of the earth forming an erupting volcano that shoots light into the Cosmos!
I found this image in Mt. Shasta and had to have it to breathe with. It's been on my altar ever since.
This last image was the one that really came through in the breath work/visualization meditation.
I sat in a special spot. I used the Bio-Mat while sitting in a chair. Have you ever heard of a Bio-Mat? Well, if you have, then you KNOW how amazing they are (worth every crazy penny) and if you have NOT heard of the Bio-Mat, that's ok... Just know that there is a seemingly ordinary 'heating-pad' out there that is actually a combination of amethyst crystals, infrared and far infrared light healing. Super potent! So, I sat my happy ass down on one of these to do the 45 minute long breath work meditation. A good idea :) I melted right away. Time to fly!
My altar is set up, I'm in a super-open-heart-space, feeling nurtured by the heat of the Bio-Mat, and I am listening to the facilitators familiar voice over the sound system. Here we go...
Sink in. Breathe out. Inhale exhale. Repeat. Hold. Give thanks for life, when totally full, blessed with the Holy Breath of Life, drifting into the Void taking the perspective of the Cosmic Eye, The I AM, the consciousness that reveals the largest picture the Infinite Mind could ever fathom where all beings are one and there is nothing but sacred shapes, lights, colors and sounds...the dust of creation...swirling into anything that you choose! Who? Me? Yes. You and the Creator are One. You acknowledge this, and it seems so simple! What an amazing feeling to connect with the Most High-Almighty Presence of All that Is and see yourself as an Infinite Universe inside of it. You are creating your whole Universe! I look around with my Third Eye and see the sound of the other light beings as they breathe. I see the sound of their breath as pillars of light shooting from the crown like umbilical cords to the sky, becoming one in the Great White Circle of Collective Light, as it moves together, balancing the benevolent collective darkness. Yin. Yang. I become the Light. I take the form of a woman and begin to run. I am running so fast and intensely that I morph back into the light where I roll out again into fleshly form as White Wolf galloping swiftly and with Purpose. I run in timelessness. I stop running. I am pregnant with the world and sit to rest beneath a giant grandmother redwood. I sit instead of lay, propped against the tree with belly to sky, front paws resting on my warm tummy and back legs spread open. From here I morph back into female form, still in this vulnerable position and leave the earth right where it is as I detach somehow from it, and begin holding it in my hands as opposed to it being in my belly. The earth is in the same place but my body moves. This is where the image on the alter comes into play. I am now holding the earth in my hands and seeing Sacred Geometric shapes begin to surround it. To be specific with the shape I saw, it is the Sri Yantra. I also happened to be wearing this same shape coupled with black tourmaline in a pendant around my neck, that I had been gifted that day. This image came through strong, and showed me that this is the shape that all of our stars and planets collectively create around the planet. There are billions of stars, and billions of galaxies, so it is certainly somewhere in the patterns, and I am feeling blessed to have seen it. Part of me feels totally crazy writing this but the rest of me is simply grateful to have this vision to hold on to. It gives me some sort of hope. The kind of hope that feels like God whispers into your ear "I Have a Plan. It is all Divine. Find the Gift." And so, I seek. I create. Already knowing the blessings is here, in this moment, as I hold the Earth and all manifested on it in my very, wrinkled, young, old hands. I am Madain, Mother and Crone all at Once. Woman and Wolf united in the Feminine.
From here my consciousness takes on another form and I become the Sacred Owl. I am White with this iridescent metallic bio armor for feathers. A beautiful snowy owl, with all seeing eyes. I seemed to be certain type of guardian owl for the Fifth (Divine Communication) Dimension. The Sacred Brass Owl was sitting on the alter underneath me. I feel like the metal enhanced the essence of the Owl, and I was in tune enough due to the rhythmic breathing that I could pick up the spiritual fragrance of this totem regarded so Sacred.
Again, feeling a little crazy, but such imaginative pictures still resonate in my mind even weeks after. It was real, because I can still feel it. You know how you dream but you know it's real from time to time? The blurred line between waking life and sleep. It's called Lucid Dreaming. This happens when you sleep, and it happens when induced by breath or other modalities. I was in a Lucid State and what I was experiencing felt just as real as typing on these dirty keys of my mostly-used up MacBook. Reality exists in ALL forms, from dirty keys to majestic visions of White Owls while resting in perfect states of consciousness meditating for world peace with 300 others. It feels good, and there is no judgment because our hearts are strong.
White Owl was beautiful, she had slanted eyes with feathered lashes and a sharp and sexy beak. Her feathers were organic yet metallic with a pearly iridescent coating. She reflected the light beautifully, shooting it off in thousands of directions, creating a soft illuminated halo around her entire being. She spread her wings fully and walked towards me. I experienced this from two perspectives. I also was her walking towards me, as well as the one she was walking towards. She wrapped her wings around the earth and was also somehow behind me. I could feel her wings wrapped around me, too, for it is a dream and all is possible. Without words she explains that this is the Protective Dream Coat and I am Safe to dream AWAKE and not fear, for she is the Owl of White Light nesting in Gratitude by Day and in Warrior Flight by Night seeing with her Owl Eyes that all is in Truth and Light!
In present moment I can tell you that I have seen White Owls almost daily ever since this vision and have had four owl feathers gifted to me as well. My boyfriend, Wolf, had two dream catchers made when I returned from this journey, both adorned with owl feathers. Synchronicity abound! The Sacred Brass Owl provided MUCH wisdom to me in my breath work on that day. Thank you, White Owl of Light! I embrace your essence and honor you as a servant to the Great Creator, the One Who Is of All Things.
There is a point in the meditation where we take 36 Warriors Breaths and continue with the final locks and holds that make the breath work so powerful, and this is the point where I begin to come back into the room, and without opening my eyes I am seeing many of the people's faces that are in the room. I am existing in what feels like multiple dimensions. I know, sounds crazy, and it is. You have to lose your mind in order to find it! I am present in the room and feeling so immensely blessed with the experience I have been gifted. I feel connected to each person in the room on a soul level. Later, when I was able to make eye contact with the attendees, I could see that they felt and saw it too, whatever it was. It was such a pure and precious awakening. I was held in a very safe space for a few days as I continued to experience this Oneness, and found a strength and presence that I had never known. I meditated most of the time and found my communication easy and no emotional attachments to any words being spoken from myself or others. I felt transparent, like all negativity just passed through me and Spirit/God/Christ Consciousness had an easy and purposeful time flowing through my body as a clean and fluid vessel. Let my body always be a Temple, clean, rested and ready to serve My Creator!
In the 24 hours that followed this amazing meditation experience, I had visions of Gandhi and Yogananda while meditating in the Self Realization Fellowship gardens and was blessed by the presence of two white swans and a red dragonfly. I was gifted the incredible honor of attending Dr. Rev. Michael Beckwith's sermon at Agape International, and listened to his lovely wife, Ricki, sing her heart songs. His message? HONOR THE BODY TEMPLE! It was right in alignment. I felt so welcomed by the presence in that church community and many of my spiritual dreams were realized in that moment, as I listened to one of the most influential characters on my journey speak words that resonated in my bones as truth. On top of all of this, somewhere on this time line I was eating at Blossoming Lotus Raw/Vegan Cafe and had the most delicious, tantalizing and delectable food on the planet. I feel that my state of consciousness had everything to do with it because something unique, sexy and totally enlightened manifested in my reality. I had an orgasm eating raw cheesecake. Yes, really. A full on climactic orgasm. The smell, the texture, the taste of different nuts and sweet pastes all blending together on my tongue aroused my entire body. My yoni began to pulsate and the energy arose so strongly that I had no chance, or desire for that matter, to stop it! I allowed it to flow and moaned and laughed, made yummy sounds and blushed while I enjoyed bite after bite, in pure ecstasy all the while. I sat between two paintings, each of a White Owl. Hmmm...again, no coincidences. The Tribe around me was impressed that I could be so sensitive and responsive to the food. I was in deep gratitude to the chef! What high vibration food. I could tell that someone had chanted and prayed over that food while preparing it. My life is totally complete now that I have had this single experience alone. Orgasmic Raw Cheesecake? Every Scorpio Females dream...
So, as you have read, this experience lasted for days. I was in a state of heightened consciousness for an extended period of time. This has happened to me a few times before. Once, for FOUR months! Again, the breath work. It's called the Nine Breath Method as facilitated by Jeff Primack. I put my own spin on it and hold the structure of the practice but sometimes switch around the breaths to my liking. Every one is different and produces different yet profound effects/sensations. I did it every day, twice a day for an entire four months. It changed my life. I began my travels around that time, giving away or selling all of my possessions. Referring my massage clients out to other professional therapists. Packing up my car and touring the country spreading love, hoops, Qi Gong, Breathing and being the Muse for All!
Another example of an extended feeling of enlightenment was my time living on Maui. I felt like no matter what happened, I was totally floating in this bubble of love and protection. Earth Angels always around as my community, freedom to be me at my most vulnerable and open, and the contrast of third dimensional reality to show me the fine lines. Really show me. In Maui, I would use the breath work to dive down deep into the ocean to the bottom, holding my breath and slowing down my heartbeat so I could hear them...the whales. What a beautiful symphony! As many as 70 whales all singing their songs in harmony and freedom. These moments are brief, when we really feel 'enlightened'. They are just examples to show us that every day holds that potential. It is up to us to create it into reality through our thoughts, words and conscious actions. It can come through breath, whale songs, a cup of tea, changing a diaper, opening a door for an elder, holding our Beloveds hand, or simply being grateful in each and every breath.
I feel like the transmission is complete. This blog may be a little random and I am leaving it mostly unedited. These are the raw words and thoughts of The Light being Shellie White.
Aloha!
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Yes, this is quite the claim. Some may even think of it as an exaggeration or embellishment. Perhaps, even, a lie. The One who says he loves me more than anyone else has gone as far to call me 'crazy'. Let me be crazy then, for I know the truth, it is written in my DNA, embedded in every cell of my being, and resonates within me as a heartbeat and breath. If you believe you are anything less than the God that Created you, you have been successfully brainwashed. I have seen the truth many times on this Earthy and Heavenly realm, yet it seems to fade in it's vibrancy, or at times I can not recall what occurred in such a breath, heat, medicinal or prayer/meditation induced state. On Tuesday August 4th in the year of 2011, I witnessed Life/Love from the perspective of The White Circle, The Void, The Place with No Duality, The Space Between, and the Mind That Created All, and remember and still feel it within me vividly. I felt strongly called to share with all. I am still coming back into this body after being fractal-ed out into Infinity...and beyond. Infinity itself is hard to grasp...can you imagine beyond the Infinite?
I closed my eyes to meditate on Global Healing along with 300 others on Tuesday. It was the fourth day of Qi Revolution Los Angelos. Enlightenment in LA? Pshhh...tough chance. Well, let's re-frame this. It IS the City of Angels! After this experience, I am sure it truly is. The following is the recipe which brought me to the following sequence of vibrant visual images of truth.
The Recipe for Realization.
-Antique Brass Owl (to see as if it were light even if it is dark)
-A Piece of Sacred Vine from Maui (heart opening)
-Fossilized Whale Ear (to listen to all information presented in the Now)
-One Circle (my third Ring. Gifted to me upon my 3rd hoop anniversary)
-Quartz (for Clarity)
-Smoky Quartz (to heal the nations)
-Photo of Yeshua (always in recognition, presence and protection of the Christ Consciousness)
-Mantra of the Violet Flame (I AM Violet Flame! To light ALONE I bow!)
-A few pairs of crystals representing union of Divine Feminine & Divine Masculine
-And the final, and most important, element it turns out:
An image of the Divine Mother Earth being held lovingly in the hands of the Divine Father, with the light grid patterns visable, a fiery phoenix in flight, a baby at the center of the earth with a plant seed sprouting from its belly and bursting out from the center of the earth forming an erupting volcano that shoots light into the Cosmos!
I found this image in Mt. Shasta and had to have it to breathe with. It's been on my altar ever since.
This last image was the one that really came through in the breath work/visualization meditation.
I sat in a special spot. I used the Bio-Mat while sitting in a chair. Have you ever heard of a Bio-Mat? Well, if you have, then you KNOW how amazing they are (worth every crazy penny) and if you have NOT heard of the Bio-Mat, that's ok... Just know that there is a seemingly ordinary 'heating-pad' out there that is actually a combination of amethyst crystals, infrared and far infrared light healing. Super potent! So, I sat my happy ass down on one of these to do the 45 minute long breath work meditation. A good idea :) I melted right away. Time to fly!
My altar is set up, I'm in a super-open-heart-space, feeling nurtured by the heat of the Bio-Mat, and I am listening to the facilitators familiar voice over the sound system. Here we go...
Sink in. Breathe out. Inhale exhale. Repeat. Hold. Give thanks for life, when totally full, blessed with the Holy Breath of Life, drifting into the Void taking the perspective of the Cosmic Eye, The I AM, the consciousness that reveals the largest picture the Infinite Mind could ever fathom where all beings are one and there is nothing but sacred shapes, lights, colors and sounds...the dust of creation...swirling into anything that you choose! Who? Me? Yes. You and the Creator are One. You acknowledge this, and it seems so simple! What an amazing feeling to connect with the Most High-Almighty Presence of All that Is and see yourself as an Infinite Universe inside of it. You are creating your whole Universe! I look around with my Third Eye and see the sound of the other light beings as they breathe. I see the sound of their breath as pillars of light shooting from the crown like umbilical cords to the sky, becoming one in the Great White Circle of Collective Light, as it moves together, balancing the benevolent collective darkness. Yin. Yang. I become the Light. I take the form of a woman and begin to run. I am running so fast and intensely that I morph back into the light where I roll out again into fleshly form as White Wolf galloping swiftly and with Purpose. I run in timelessness. I stop running. I am pregnant with the world and sit to rest beneath a giant grandmother redwood. I sit instead of lay, propped against the tree with belly to sky, front paws resting on my warm tummy and back legs spread open. From here I morph back into female form, still in this vulnerable position and leave the earth right where it is as I detach somehow from it, and begin holding it in my hands as opposed to it being in my belly. The earth is in the same place but my body moves. This is where the image on the alter comes into play. I am now holding the earth in my hands and seeing Sacred Geometric shapes begin to surround it. To be specific with the shape I saw, it is the Sri Yantra. I also happened to be wearing this same shape coupled with black tourmaline in a pendant around my neck, that I had been gifted that day. This image came through strong, and showed me that this is the shape that all of our stars and planets collectively create around the planet. There are billions of stars, and billions of galaxies, so it is certainly somewhere in the patterns, and I am feeling blessed to have seen it. Part of me feels totally crazy writing this but the rest of me is simply grateful to have this vision to hold on to. It gives me some sort of hope. The kind of hope that feels like God whispers into your ear "I Have a Plan. It is all Divine. Find the Gift." And so, I seek. I create. Already knowing the blessings is here, in this moment, as I hold the Earth and all manifested on it in my very, wrinkled, young, old hands. I am Madain, Mother and Crone all at Once. Woman and Wolf united in the Feminine.
White Owl was beautiful, she had slanted eyes with feathered lashes and a sharp and sexy beak. Her feathers were organic yet metallic with a pearly iridescent coating. She reflected the light beautifully, shooting it off in thousands of directions, creating a soft illuminated halo around her entire being. She spread her wings fully and walked towards me. I experienced this from two perspectives. I also was her walking towards me, as well as the one she was walking towards. She wrapped her wings around the earth and was also somehow behind me. I could feel her wings wrapped around me, too, for it is a dream and all is possible. Without words she explains that this is the Protective Dream Coat and I am Safe to dream AWAKE and not fear, for she is the Owl of White Light nesting in Gratitude by Day and in Warrior Flight by Night seeing with her Owl Eyes that all is in Truth and Light!
In present moment I can tell you that I have seen White Owls almost daily ever since this vision and have had four owl feathers gifted to me as well. My boyfriend, Wolf, had two dream catchers made when I returned from this journey, both adorned with owl feathers. Synchronicity abound! The Sacred Brass Owl provided MUCH wisdom to me in my breath work on that day. Thank you, White Owl of Light! I embrace your essence and honor you as a servant to the Great Creator, the One Who Is of All Things.
There is a point in the meditation where we take 36 Warriors Breaths and continue with the final locks and holds that make the breath work so powerful, and this is the point where I begin to come back into the room, and without opening my eyes I am seeing many of the people's faces that are in the room. I am existing in what feels like multiple dimensions. I know, sounds crazy, and it is. You have to lose your mind in order to find it! I am present in the room and feeling so immensely blessed with the experience I have been gifted. I feel connected to each person in the room on a soul level. Later, when I was able to make eye contact with the attendees, I could see that they felt and saw it too, whatever it was. It was such a pure and precious awakening. I was held in a very safe space for a few days as I continued to experience this Oneness, and found a strength and presence that I had never known. I meditated most of the time and found my communication easy and no emotional attachments to any words being spoken from myself or others. I felt transparent, like all negativity just passed through me and Spirit/God/Christ Consciousness had an easy and purposeful time flowing through my body as a clean and fluid vessel. Let my body always be a Temple, clean, rested and ready to serve My Creator!
In the 24 hours that followed this amazing meditation experience, I had visions of Gandhi and Yogananda while meditating in the Self Realization Fellowship gardens and was blessed by the presence of two white swans and a red dragonfly. I was gifted the incredible honor of attending Dr. Rev. Michael Beckwith's sermon at Agape International, and listened to his lovely wife, Ricki, sing her heart songs. His message? HONOR THE BODY TEMPLE! It was right in alignment. I felt so welcomed by the presence in that church community and many of my spiritual dreams were realized in that moment, as I listened to one of the most influential characters on my journey speak words that resonated in my bones as truth. On top of all of this, somewhere on this time line I was eating at Blossoming Lotus Raw/Vegan Cafe and had the most delicious, tantalizing and delectable food on the planet. I feel that my state of consciousness had everything to do with it because something unique, sexy and totally enlightened manifested in my reality. I had an orgasm eating raw cheesecake. Yes, really. A full on climactic orgasm. The smell, the texture, the taste of different nuts and sweet pastes all blending together on my tongue aroused my entire body. My yoni began to pulsate and the energy arose so strongly that I had no chance, or desire for that matter, to stop it! I allowed it to flow and moaned and laughed, made yummy sounds and blushed while I enjoyed bite after bite, in pure ecstasy all the while. I sat between two paintings, each of a White Owl. Hmmm...again, no coincidences. The Tribe around me was impressed that I could be so sensitive and responsive to the food. I was in deep gratitude to the chef! What high vibration food. I could tell that someone had chanted and prayed over that food while preparing it. My life is totally complete now that I have had this single experience alone. Orgasmic Raw Cheesecake? Every Scorpio Females dream...
So, as you have read, this experience lasted for days. I was in a state of heightened consciousness for an extended period of time. This has happened to me a few times before. Once, for FOUR months! Again, the breath work. It's called the Nine Breath Method as facilitated by Jeff Primack. I put my own spin on it and hold the structure of the practice but sometimes switch around the breaths to my liking. Every one is different and produces different yet profound effects/sensations. I did it every day, twice a day for an entire four months. It changed my life. I began my travels around that time, giving away or selling all of my possessions. Referring my massage clients out to other professional therapists. Packing up my car and touring the country spreading love, hoops, Qi Gong, Breathing and being the Muse for All!
I feel like the transmission is complete. This blog may be a little random and I am leaving it mostly unedited. These are the raw words and thoughts of The Light being Shellie White.
Aloha!
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Friday, January 14, 2011
I Heart California
What a crazy five months of wonderfulness and fun I had in the incredible state of California. Now that I have landed on the island of Maui, I am feeling it is time to reflect on my most amazing California Adventure.
The essence of California was captured in the green. The most beautiful hearts, and heads of lettuce I've ever seen! Everything was local, everything felt cleaner.
But by the time the Winter came I felt the need to switch the scene. I truly harvested myself, cultivating the forest floor of my soul. Cleansing the karmic root amongst the wise Redwoods. Connecting with the ones who were connected, realizing we are all connected As One.
California showed me the true community. People living with people and not televisions. Group homes. Families. Farms and real food. It is a real way of life. We are able to live as a unit. As a Hive. I watched the bees and the the beekeeper work symbiotically in San Diego . The beekeeper said 'The bees are a meditation in life. It is best to be approached with tenderness and gentility." These were the lessons. They kept coming in Santa Cruz. The Forest taught me the way of the Gentle Wo/Man. The Peaceful Warrior/ess. The Tenderness. The tender of the Fire. I am the one who Nurtures and is Nurtured. We are all connected in root. Do it for your family as you would do it for yourself. The Earth is our home. We feed each other. Share! Trust it is all provided.
It is a good thing that the essence of California was Trust, because trust can really be put to test on the small, remote island of Maui, in the middle of the Pacific Ocean where one is closer the Japan than the place she once knew as Home. My wild, young heart is untamed, happy and eternally free! My adventures in San Diego, Santa Cruz, Humbolt and Carmel prepared my heart and head for Maui. For this, I am grateful.
San Diego was such a magical trip! My first time in California. I was greeting by my Qi Family and stayed with my new soul-twin Anne, who lived with Bee Keepers and fighters of Food Justice. Anne fed me rooster that she cleaned and plucked and cooked. We passed our Level One Qi Gong Certification together. I sold hoops and taught hoops and did all kinds of Qi Gong and went to Dance Church and fell all kinds of in love with life in ways I never knew possible! Off to Santa Cruz to facilitate healing at Hoop Camp. I'll miss you SD!
Hoop Camp at Pema Osa Ling Buddhist Retreat Center was phenomenal. I set up my massage table in a circle of Redwood trees. When my clients laid down to look up, they saw this amazing tree canopy with sunlight streaming through. The healing begun before my hands even touched them. It was one of the most rewarding experiences of my life. Truly. After Hoop Camp I stayed with my soul sister, Taylor, for a bit which was super-sweet. She helped me while I was transitioning into the cold, wet weather in California and made sure I was provided for. Much gratitude! I left Santa Cruz to check out Humbolt and spend some time in the Giant Redwoods. I am sooooo glad I did...
I was humbled in Giant Trees of Humbolt. I honored them, each of them. I danced amongst the trunks and blossomed. A budding occured. A buddha I became. Each one of you, the same. Unfold. Behold.
I spent Halloween and my Birthday alone in the middle of the Redwoods in silence. I listened to the wolves howl and slept in the trunk of a tree. I meditated on the rock until the day turned to nights. Until birds songs turned to cricket chirps and the air became cool and crisp. This time was special to me, and I connected with a Life Force from the Roots that I had not yet felt. I wasn't sure what to do after that. Then Renee called. "I have folks in San Jose who want massage from you and I would love for you to stay with me," she says. Off to San Jose!
I arrived in San Jose to Renee's house feeling like kind of a gross hippie, actually. I needed a shower and to wash my clothes. She took me right in and made sure i got clean and fed and was amazed at how I transformed after a little self-care. I stayed with Renee and went to San Jose hoop jams, saw massage clients in her living room every week, and made art and wrote poetry while she worked on her art and words, as well. We danced in the back yard and had tea and tokes in front of her fire place. It was so simple. I was so happy. I love you, Renee! I had been spending a lot of time in Santa Cruz while in San Jose so I decided to rent a room there. I love and miss you, Renee!
I found a perfect room in the perfect spot in the middle of the redwoods in Aptos, which was just two miles from Santa Cruz. I lived with Aly Love and the Kitty Sunshine and life was beautiful as we cooked and chatted. I spent time with my beautiful friend Forest in the woods and by the fire. Forest and I found a familiar friendship that is so special to me! Aly worked out of the house so I made art and lit incense and wandered around in the trees, letting them speak to my heart. I cleansed and cleaned the corners of my soul. For one month I lived there, having a beautiful home amongst the wise woods. It was hard to leave that spot. Maui, however, is calling strong...
I spent Thanksgiving in Santa Cruz with my Family from Florida in Flow and Gratitude. I was cozy with my Tribe from the East as we gathered on the West with new souls and filled bowls and seconds and desert. Turkey with Taylor, Matthias, Corrine and Kyer. Purrr-fection!
I ventured back to San Diego for a while to practice and study The Bronnikov Method, which led me to understand that I am creating my reality, I have control of my body and brain, and I am the One that I have waited for. Big downloads! Back to Santa Cruz.
I spent Christmas in Santa Cruz with new Tribe. I found the Presence in the Stillness on the Eve of the Birth of the New Son. Christmas came full circle at Deer Heart's lovely abode in the Santa Cruz Mountains. Only in California can one go to a gathering that celebrates (well organized, mind you) each religious story of the Season with song and celebration, acknowledging the power of the ritual with practice and intention (and a yummy raw/vegan dinner)! We celebrated Christmas time with Christianity, Hanukah and Solstice. I absorbed the Vibration of each master and devotee. I honored each theory in Reverence and paid extra homage to the Christ, as it was the Way in which I came into this World. I was put here on Purpose, and it has been acknowledged. It was a beautiful Celebration indeed. My vegan mashed potatoes changed peoples lives. And that...was my Christmas wish. I experienced my first Christmas away from blood family AND with a burst ear drum. In the middle of the Santa Cruz Mountains surrounded by a family that loves everyone all the time, no fear was in my heart. Only a deep admiration of the Spirit, the soul circle gathered around me, and my peace of mind. The silence from my burst eardrum was a blessing, as I listened to Spirit whisper the most important message of all: Step forward. You are the light.
I rang in the New Year with Kit spinning Fire Rings, Bird of Prey spinning beats to inspire, some Hoola Monsters to stomp it in right, and danced and twirled the entire night! I danced and flew and sang and blew kisses, moving my body for Source like it's my job. Because it is.
I glowed in the dark with rings of rainbows. I rounded up some partners with my lasso of love and we acted as through the world was our stage, being our boldest selves in the song and slight silences in between. 01.01.2011. The Countdown was on! Happy YOU year!
On 1.11.11 I was to leave for Maui. I was already missing California but so very excited for my Maui adventure!
Pulling myself from the super-cushy love vibe of Santa Cruz was hard. I miss my girls in San Diego, too! I fell in love with the Redwood Giants and one day will be back in California. I will be in Santa Cruz for Hoop Camp for sure in September. Perhaps, just maybe, this is where I will choose to make home. This gypsy still has much to explore, but the West Coast is in the running for 'Home' when it comes time.
Five months in California was such good soul medicine. Do it if you can. For now, I revel in the womb of Mother Maui, where I am transforming and being reborn as we speak. Layers stripped. Skin shed. Feather's molted. A new being arises. Aloha Nui Loa to you all. Thank you for reading my words and wandering with my Spirit. Blessings!
The essence of California was captured in the green. The most beautiful hearts, and heads of lettuce I've ever seen! Everything was local, everything felt cleaner.
But by the time the Winter came I felt the need to switch the scene. I truly harvested myself, cultivating the forest floor of my soul. Cleansing the karmic root amongst the wise Redwoods. Connecting with the ones who were connected, realizing we are all connected As One.
California showed me the true community. People living with people and not televisions. Group homes. Families. Farms and real food. It is a real way of life. We are able to live as a unit. As a Hive. I watched the bees and the the beekeeper work symbiotically in San Diego . The beekeeper said 'The bees are a meditation in life. It is best to be approached with tenderness and gentility." These were the lessons. They kept coming in Santa Cruz. The Forest taught me the way of the Gentle Wo/Man. The Peaceful Warrior/ess. The Tenderness. The tender of the Fire. I am the one who Nurtures and is Nurtured. We are all connected in root. Do it for your family as you would do it for yourself. The Earth is our home. We feed each other. Share! Trust it is all provided.
It is a good thing that the essence of California was Trust, because trust can really be put to test on the small, remote island of Maui, in the middle of the Pacific Ocean where one is closer the Japan than the place she once knew as Home. My wild, young heart is untamed, happy and eternally free! My adventures in San Diego, Santa Cruz, Humbolt and Carmel prepared my heart and head for Maui. For this, I am grateful.
San Diego was such a magical trip! My first time in California. I was greeting by my Qi Family and stayed with my new soul-twin Anne, who lived with Bee Keepers and fighters of Food Justice. Anne fed me rooster that she cleaned and plucked and cooked. We passed our Level One Qi Gong Certification together. I sold hoops and taught hoops and did all kinds of Qi Gong and went to Dance Church and fell all kinds of in love with life in ways I never knew possible! Off to Santa Cruz to facilitate healing at Hoop Camp. I'll miss you SD!
Hoop Camp at Pema Osa Ling Buddhist Retreat Center was phenomenal. I set up my massage table in a circle of Redwood trees. When my clients laid down to look up, they saw this amazing tree canopy with sunlight streaming through. The healing begun before my hands even touched them. It was one of the most rewarding experiences of my life. Truly. After Hoop Camp I stayed with my soul sister, Taylor, for a bit which was super-sweet. She helped me while I was transitioning into the cold, wet weather in California and made sure I was provided for. Much gratitude! I left Santa Cruz to check out Humbolt and spend some time in the Giant Redwoods. I am sooooo glad I did...
I was humbled in Giant Trees of Humbolt. I honored them, each of them. I danced amongst the trunks and blossomed. A budding occured. A buddha I became. Each one of you, the same. Unfold. Behold.
I spent Halloween and my Birthday alone in the middle of the Redwoods in silence. I listened to the wolves howl and slept in the trunk of a tree. I meditated on the rock until the day turned to nights. Until birds songs turned to cricket chirps and the air became cool and crisp. This time was special to me, and I connected with a Life Force from the Roots that I had not yet felt. I wasn't sure what to do after that. Then Renee called. "I have folks in San Jose who want massage from you and I would love for you to stay with me," she says. Off to San Jose!
I arrived in San Jose to Renee's house feeling like kind of a gross hippie, actually. I needed a shower and to wash my clothes. She took me right in and made sure i got clean and fed and was amazed at how I transformed after a little self-care. I stayed with Renee and went to San Jose hoop jams, saw massage clients in her living room every week, and made art and wrote poetry while she worked on her art and words, as well. We danced in the back yard and had tea and tokes in front of her fire place. It was so simple. I was so happy. I love you, Renee! I had been spending a lot of time in Santa Cruz while in San Jose so I decided to rent a room there. I love and miss you, Renee!
I found a perfect room in the perfect spot in the middle of the redwoods in Aptos, which was just two miles from Santa Cruz. I lived with Aly Love and the Kitty Sunshine and life was beautiful as we cooked and chatted. I spent time with my beautiful friend Forest in the woods and by the fire. Forest and I found a familiar friendship that is so special to me! Aly worked out of the house so I made art and lit incense and wandered around in the trees, letting them speak to my heart. I cleansed and cleaned the corners of my soul. For one month I lived there, having a beautiful home amongst the wise woods. It was hard to leave that spot. Maui, however, is calling strong...
I spent Thanksgiving in Santa Cruz with my Family from Florida in Flow and Gratitude. I was cozy with my Tribe from the East as we gathered on the West with new souls and filled bowls and seconds and desert. Turkey with Taylor, Matthias, Corrine and Kyer. Purrr-fection!
I ventured back to San Diego for a while to practice and study The Bronnikov Method, which led me to understand that I am creating my reality, I have control of my body and brain, and I am the One that I have waited for. Big downloads! Back to Santa Cruz.
I spent Christmas in Santa Cruz with new Tribe. I found the Presence in the Stillness on the Eve of the Birth of the New Son. Christmas came full circle at Deer Heart's lovely abode in the Santa Cruz Mountains. Only in California can one go to a gathering that celebrates (well organized, mind you) each religious story of the Season with song and celebration, acknowledging the power of the ritual with practice and intention (and a yummy raw/vegan dinner)! We celebrated Christmas time with Christianity, Hanukah and Solstice. I absorbed the Vibration of each master and devotee. I honored each theory in Reverence and paid extra homage to the Christ, as it was the Way in which I came into this World. I was put here on Purpose, and it has been acknowledged. It was a beautiful Celebration indeed. My vegan mashed potatoes changed peoples lives. And that...was my Christmas wish. I experienced my first Christmas away from blood family AND with a burst ear drum. In the middle of the Santa Cruz Mountains surrounded by a family that loves everyone all the time, no fear was in my heart. Only a deep admiration of the Spirit, the soul circle gathered around me, and my peace of mind. The silence from my burst eardrum was a blessing, as I listened to Spirit whisper the most important message of all: Step forward. You are the light.
I rang in the New Year with Kit spinning Fire Rings, Bird of Prey spinning beats to inspire, some Hoola Monsters to stomp it in right, and danced and twirled the entire night! I danced and flew and sang and blew kisses, moving my body for Source like it's my job. Because it is.
I glowed in the dark with rings of rainbows. I rounded up some partners with my lasso of love and we acted as through the world was our stage, being our boldest selves in the song and slight silences in between. 01.01.2011. The Countdown was on! Happy YOU year!
On 1.11.11 I was to leave for Maui. I was already missing California but so very excited for my Maui adventure!
Pulling myself from the super-cushy love vibe of Santa Cruz was hard. I miss my girls in San Diego, too! I fell in love with the Redwood Giants and one day will be back in California. I will be in Santa Cruz for Hoop Camp for sure in September. Perhaps, just maybe, this is where I will choose to make home. This gypsy still has much to explore, but the West Coast is in the running for 'Home' when it comes time.
Five months in California was such good soul medicine. Do it if you can. For now, I revel in the womb of Mother Maui, where I am transforming and being reborn as we speak. Layers stripped. Skin shed. Feather's molted. A new being arises. Aloha Nui Loa to you all. Thank you for reading my words and wandering with my Spirit. Blessings!
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